Champaklal Speaks

6 November 1932

Mother, I wrote a letter to Sri Aurobindo [regarding my afternoon rest]. He replied, “She does not Insist.” I misunderstood its meaning and stopped taking rest and started drawing and painting flowers during resting time. But now that I have understood my mistake I beg your pardon. I do not want to displease you in any way. My only aim in life is to be what you want me to be. “Knowingly or unknowingly may I never do anything against Thy will” is my prayer, my sadhana, and my mantra.

Of course you ought to have rested in the afternoon as the Mother had told, as a matter of obedience. But if you had remained quiet all the time, it would not have mattered so much. What is doing harm is your mixing too much with M and S; it is lowering your atmosphere and harming your progress.

6.11.1932

Sri Aurobindo