Champaklal Speaks

Pastille in the Wrong Mouth

1949-11-30

Sri Aurobindo used to take a pastille after finishing his food. These pastilles came from France. But during war-time they were prepared here by Sujata according to the formula given by Pavitra.

Sri Aurobindo used to take the pastille at different times. They were kept in a small square silver box. I would open the box, keep the lid in my hand and place the box in Mother's hands. She would stretch her hand to Sri Aurobindo. Today however Mother took one pastille from the box and put it in her own mouth instead of passing it to Sri Aurobindo. He looked at me and at Mother, smiling. Suddenly Mother remembered and said, “Sorry.” More than the word was her expression which was always worth observing and enjoying.

Speaking of their expressions, I must say that I was never tired of observing them. They meant so much to me; that observation was my life.

Looking back I can see how through all these means they both trained me in becoming more and more conscious. But at that time

I was not aware that I was being trained. It was always a pilgrimage from joy to joy.