Dyuman's Correspondence with The Mother

11 November 1936

My dear Mother,

A weak point is opening in me: I am becoming over-sensitive to the slightest thing and my first reaction is: "Send me away, relieve me from this work." My faithfulness to You does not in the least tolerate this weakness, and yet I cannot deny its presence. Some months back You told me: "You have not taken full refuge in me; there is something which is not yet worked out." This is true, and this is what brings up all the trouble from the subconscious.

My very dear child,

It is a very great progress that you have become conscious of this weak point in you—for now it will be relatively easy to overcome it.

The first step is not to identify yourself with it—to consider it as some wrong influence from outside, something to be pushed away. And if in spite of that it touches you, call me, call me ceaselessly until you are cured. At the same time it will give strength to the weak point and you will see that little by little it will become strong.

Always with you, certain of the victory

11 November 1936