Dyuman's Correspondence with The Mother

4 March 1932

Mother,

Nolini brought me the typed message sent by You. I have read it again and again. It is the strongest letter I have ever read. The last few lines about Your children's disobedience and disregard for You are heart-rending. Though the letter is not addressed to me and though You do not make me responsible for this dramatic catastrophe, I cannot shirk it.

The letter is not from me but from Sri Aurobindo.

Last night I was going to write to You: how can I pay You the price of the 250 items?

I do not see why you should have to pay for it. We do not consider you in fault.

I will give You the easy chair and iron bed, and if that does not suffice I will send to You the trunk with some clothes given by You.

Send me nothing. I want nothing. Keep the bed, the chair, the box and the rest.

My first thought was to give up half my measure of milk for one year.

Certainly not. I find that already you are not eating enough and would like you to eat rather more than less.

Mother, disregard for You? Disobedience to You?

I never said that you did disregard or disobey me.

If this is the case, it is all the same whether I am here or elsewhere. Why pain You by gross darkness?

This is quite absurd. I am not pained.

No longer will I trouble You with writing "Thy child".

I never objected to your writing "Thy child" and expect you to do it always.

Mother, let Your Will alone be fulfilled.

This is quite good. And I trust you will do it.

In fact I sent the letter to you so that you might use it to show to people if necessary.

4 March 1932