Pradyot's Correspondence with The Mother

14 October 1968

Mother,

The irritation is not there now, but there is fever, 101.8°F, probably because of infection caused by remnant urine in the bladder which has not been cleared as the flow is little.

Sri Aurobindo has written that you can be "hard and terrible". Not for me, now, I hope. I would rather be reassured that surrounded by your Grace and Protection, what have I to fear in this or in other worlds?

I ask this question because the prostate is a sex gland, I hear. At home and outside, I have to live and deal with many girls and their problems.

I thought I was reasonably free from sex; I consciously aspired for it to be able to do my work. Is it that the Sex-God did not like it and struck me on the victory day?

Surely the Sex-God is not stronger that the Divine's Love and you can be assured that the Divine's Love is with you and the Sex-God will have to behave properly!

Blessings

14 October 1968