CWTVKS Volume 2

II) From Tusarakoti

[Journal maintained by the Editor]

Mere occult powers without a spiritual basis cannot take one far, they do not go long enough. If mere Tantra Sastra were enough, things would have shaped quite differently with me. Even before I met Nayana,¹¹ I knew and had practised these austerities with considerable success. And it is the reserve power of Vak that has been stored up in me clue to prolonged Mantra-upasana in these early years that still works what you might call ‘miracles’. At any moment when I call Sri Aurobindo or the Mother, the response is immediate. The surcharged Vak power goes forth instantaneously and the call is effective. Times without number when you were unwell I have called Them (Sri Aurobindo or Mother), and have seen the response effective in you.

22 June 1951

I am a Tantric through and through—to my marrow. I was a Tantric. If I have not written on the subject as much as on the Veda and the Upanishads it is simply because the subject is not very much connected with the Teaching here.

I know the Tantra Sadhana in a very familiar way and can utilise my knowledge of the World-Power in an effective manner.

July 1951

I never fail to invoke my ista devata. Vivekananda speaks of Kali worship of his for secular purposes. For me, whatever the purpose—secular or spiritual, to wait upon the ista devata is a rule. Even when going to the Mother I do it.

23 August 1950