This is a selection from the private journal of a seeker of the New World. These reflections are interspersed with quotes from Sri Aurobindo & The Mother.
Yoga in 21st Century
THEME/S
Thursday, January 1, 2026
A golden sun in the Center of forehead.Like a round yellow ball.
Believe.
Monday, January 5, 2026
There is only way of avoiding the danger of betraying God- it is by BEING GOD.
O Child of Ancient Yoga!You wake up each morning on yours Mother's lap.
There is a fiery seed which is the origin of any thought or feeling or action.It is THAT.
Mental man makes us get lost in thoughts, feeling and action to disguise THAT.
Surely there must be other ways to perceive and translate THAT. Pure and transparent.
Wednesday, January 7, 2026
Abhorrence of Death is used to drive Man only till he is still only an awakened animal consciousness. Further on- it is only the Love and Need for Truth that propels us.
A Golden White creamy sea of consciousness where it is hard to extricate oneself from that thick gluey golden mass.
On France in ruins- give me some sign of Life if possible.
“I wait on the other side of the tomb”
Was this the answer?
The current center of consciousness is perceived as a shriveled up ....rigid mass that governs all life.Behind and Above is a vaster....more free...more light.....undulating consciousness....from which perhaps flows an undulating Life.
The frantic panic with which we seek the comfort of the cage if even for a second we are freed.....is funny and tragic.This is the instinct of an ignorant life.
-Can it be possible that it is harder to give up our minds than to give up our lives?One underestimates the sense of comfort and security that is provided by the mind even for Yogis....for all Yoga also relies upon a structure...
-This adventure is really for crazy people...
Lover, Lunatics and Poets are made of the same stuff said a grand man once!
Thursday, January 8, 2026
Breath by BreathInch by InchOne has to chase out the mortal in us.
Truth- in direct perception perhaps feels very different from what the mind and heart made it appear to be.What does the physical feel it as?
Savitri
Then lest a human cry should spoil the TruthHe tore desire up from its bleeding rootsAnd offered to the gods the vacant place
Friday, January 9, 2026
Waves of purifying force emitting from the Samadhi
It appears as if I am conjuring up all the men from the glorious past to give some wind to the dream that find no support in this suffocating century.
They send a faint but distinct note. And I survive on it.O my galaxy of dead brothers.
But my attachment to these great men and great times proves the necessity for Nature to complete obliterate this vibration in this century filled with gnomes. There was perhaps no other way for mankind to move forward.
Sri Aurobindo's lotus in the heart.
This can triumph over all.
Saturday, January 10, 2026
A SOLID BLOCK of stillness and silence replacing this body.
Our True being is really something else....
And maybe this Truth Consciousness really can do things...If we give it a chance.
There was something profound in the vibration of Fraternity that France felt and pronounced to the world.But it was incomplete- for it excluded the enemy against which it was proclaimedMan embraces this enemy wronglyMan fights this enemy wronglyBecause everything we do is done falsely and mortally.But God doesn't allow us to get away- we come back in a bloodied and exhausted state to finally hug that miserable enemy- for no Salvation is possible alone.The falsehood that we trample on our blazing path will one day call us back to redeem it.God's battle is exacting.Nothing is saved until everything is saved.
Sunday, January 11, 2026
The world of darkness is playing a dangerous provocative game with the Spirit.
Something might just burst forth.One does not know the kind of Pride the Spirit too possesses- ours is a ridiculous copy of its Supreme Dignity and Ambition.
Monday, January 12, 2026
The Glory of being Man is in ceasing to be one.
This often repeating feeling- that I am having some great réalisations but am unable to fix it in time- our present mortal time.
Am I also solving the problem at a plane where it does not exist?
What is this duration less experience that just dissolves before I can fix it?
We cannot be True anywhere- unless we are True at the BASE.And no Beauty can exist on the base of a funadamental UNREALITY.That takes away all the joy of all idealism and Art and surface level spirituality that made human life tolerable- and gives this massive burden of duty to achieve this hard victory.Everything else is just an illusion.
Tuesday, January 13, 2026
One pointed concentration- to be absolutely self absorbed in That or in pursuit of That.
At the Samadhi.
One ought not fear upheavals or even long periods of dark groping.Because it is only pushing against this wall....that a new perception grows. Perhaps at all levels.
Without resistance, no mountain can be climbed.It is a question of mechanism. That's why darkness exists- like a practical necessity.Otherwise all is Light and one ought never to forget it.Thus, avoid gloom.
-But there is a self propelling movement too that is possible after a certain stage has been crossed.When Light moves Towards Light brushing against nothing.
Thursday, January 15, 2026
Where does this heart beat if not in Thee, O Ma.
May this miserable existence ABDICATE in each fibre before the sheer Greatness of Your Dream.
Friday, January 16, 2026
It appears as if the human way of breathing is a moment to moment indictment of our impotent false life.It rises - meets a limit- and falls back.And this laboured process is called life. A cessation from this- death and mastery of this- yoga.
But second after second we bang and retreat against this Obstacle that prevents that glorious flight of True Life. How is it that all Yogis felt such Bliss in this rhythm but never noticed that we touch the limits of our existence - every single moment of our existence.Second after second- one is given an opportunity to make a call to That.Maybe the body already has been doing it for milleniums.
The tremor of falsehood- is linked to the false time we live in. Something is conscious of this and hence wants to get out of it- in all crazy ways possible- causing that incessant hunger and restlessness and disorder.Real lasting peace is only in Truth.
Saturday, January 17, 2026
Each of us has a particular way of being human.And mortal.
A single very thin laser beam illuminating a dark hole.
Monday, January 19, 2026
“Seek child, seek”. - heard in sleep.
A thick golden consciousness at the Samadhi
A blinding white light in Sri Smriti before Her Lotus photo....so heavy that I couldn't lift my head to look at her.
Monday, February 9, 2026
The presence of Sri Aurobindo as a Consciousness that is Awake- eyes that do not blink....taut- without slackening.It needs no respite of sinking into inertia. -
Before sleep saw myself as a light pink shapeless thing being moulded in the Divine Presence. It was as if tossed from His hand to Hers.
A curious dark game in which we are trapped.A false consciousness rebels against the falsehood which it has created.It WEAVES a web of revolt and anguish and grief and relishes it while pretending to be disgusted.To perceive the false is an awakening and progress - but this clouding blocks the True vibration.
Thursday, February 26, 2026
To be able to dangle one's chains noisily- that's human freedom.
Saturday, February 28, 2026
To die to THAT- bit by bit everyday.Expunge me out of myself, O Ma.
Sunday, March 1, 2026
There is the LordAnd there is His servant.
A state of consciousness fixed on this.
Wednesday, March 4, 2026
Your ailments are not going to be cured- you will be cured OF them.
The bent stick will straighten.
Thursday, March 5, 2026
There is no point in fighting Man- it is the forces that drive him that have to be conquered.Man is a poor helpless creature not really worth combat. Even his falsehood is not his own.
The Earth has to be liberated from these reigning forces- then all nations will blossom and so will man.
There is a physical human vibration that has to be surpassed.
Oh my poor saintly, spiritual humanity- you cannot imagine what changing species actually means!
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If the mental world is sincere, devoted and has good will- does it mean it will not be surpassed?
I oscillate between the desire to strike or forgo.
A little bit like Arjuna on that battlefield.
One has to be totally egoless to act according to the Divine’s Will- otherwise it is only about ‘my’ preferences.
Sometimes it seems that when that blazing Light comes to transform man into a new species, the spiritual community will raise a life-size image of the Divine as a shield against the advancing Force—
“Spare us—we are devotees.”
Monday, March 23, 2026
May the human beast in me truly die today, O Ma.
Saturday, March 28, 2026
(Observing this new age spirituality )
One could have never imagined that the human mind PLUS Truth will be worse than what it was MINUS it.
What incorrigible distortions it is capable of!
It is only a conceited humility that makes Man say that he cannot do it.How can we fail to achieve what we ALREADY are.
Sunday, April 12, 2026
15 years after having read Satprem, you one day finally seize that VIBRATION of the new life, the new world- the next species.And then, your interest in everything in Satprem that is not tending towards THAT just drops off by itself.You keep revisiting him only to gorge yourself on that sparking new state of being.
Wednesday, April 15, 2026
(Engaging in a battle with the wisemen of this community)
The human consciousness has to be completely uprooted in oneself before one can begin tackling the world.All adversaries only force you to be TRUER.
Remember- you have to leap along with the adversary you are wrestling with into THAT which will purify both of you.
A sharp laser beam of golden light....piercing the top of the skull.
I feel like I have said a farewell to my life and my world.
There is in me a Being who is so starved of Greatness- who so desperately searches the world for it and so acutely misses it- that I suspect He will make something great out of me to satisfy His hunger.
The elf in me doesn’t forget to snigger about a certain possibility of a ‘delusion of grandeur’. To which something in me replies- “ I don’t care as long as I can one day achieve that grandeur that I may be presently deluded about.”
Sunday, April 19, 2026
It is by consuming your own impurities that The Agni blazes forward with strength.Having performed the sacrifice well- you too march confidently.
Use well the only instrument you have to contact That- Manas.Then break apart even that instrument.
Summary of the week
Friday, May 1, 2026
The True Consciousness cannot comprehend this world of ours.That is how this old falsehood will dematerialise into absurdity.
A forceful waterfall of consciousness which can sweep one away....but something refusing to give way…
In sleep- saw a silver shapeless 'thing' - alive but not like us- one was forcing it to express and it obliged- but it was a real strain for it to come down to our level.A throb of the next way of being. A new LIFE.
Monday, May 4, 2026
Your Blessed sons of misfortune....are still around Ma.
My constellation of dead brothers.
Sunday, May 17, 2026
The highest deals with the lowest without intermediaries.
Friday, May 22, 2026
To imagine that one day the earth would be cleansed totally of this particular vibration of heaviness and unease which is carried by Man's best and worst.We have got so used to it that we cannot live an unburdened life- simple, pure and free.A life not needing to be rectified at each moment- not straining for something at each moment- is not conceivable for us.We cannot believe that one day- there will be no problems to solve.
Whatever happens, one thing is for sure- I am too entrenched in the collective mud to ever have an individual salvation.
This thirst for the Divine Supernature- and a perpetual dissatisfaction with everything that is not THAT.
The zero hour of the Divine is....difficult.
Sunday, May 24, 2026
Be always in a state of YOGA
The Divine CHEWS our little self...
It is a sensation of being gnawed upon and engulfed.
Time is a mental sensation- needed because the mind needs to spread out things in a sequence in order to 'think'.True Consciousness is ubiquitous- - the next state would not perceive Time simply because it doesn't need to.
Sri Aurobindo's face with a golden hue
Tuesday, May 26, 2026
The Divine Consciousness at its highest is COMPLETE- self contained with no sense of striving because it has no sense of HUNGER at any level.That has to be achieved and retained.
Wednesday, May 27, 2026
Don't engage with the world with anything other than THE SUPRAMENTAL power.And until you have that- keep shut.For there is absolutely no other way to touch this earthly ignorance.It is a possession- and you cannot talk your way out of it.And you are not even so sure of yourself.
Somehow-not able to implement this restraint.
Cannot quite bear this self-satisfied humanity distributing brochures of its self-contentment.
A golden torrent in a black space.
Thursday, May 28, 2026
The best of my past had been to fight for Truth.New heroism consists in the ability to see that falsehood never existed.Truth will replace this nightmare- and there will be nothing to combat.
All along I have had attitudes that help one survive this horror. Very effective ones.A height of heroism and courage and nobility.But now- at the root of this horror- the heroic attitude has disappeared with the death of the old man..
The physical will have to find its own heroism- its own power to resist this falsehood - and maybe the story will be as beautiful as the ones that I lived upon and which I cannot touch anymore.
A battle without filters- at the very source- a new groping phase.
Oh my dead constellation of brothers- looks like I have lost you….
A naked being at Her feet.
Friday, May 29, 2026
There is a playful baby that traverses my body....
I once saw it settling itself to a comfortable position in the heart. It was dressed in white cloth with blue glittering border.
Sunday, May 31, 2026
Naked Truth fights with Naked Falsehood.
Everything on earth was always through intermediaries...
There is a New Consciousness- a new power of Being which has NO KNOWN CENTER in the body.
Monday, June 1, 2026
We have all along been using illumined mental consciousness to solve a lot of falsehood. That 'explained' the issue- and justified its provisional presence to close the matter.
But now- one sees an onslaught of the false vibrations going to an unknown center for being truly resolved.
Something is refusing the mental filter-and with it the peace and security of a well explained and self satisfied state of consciousness.The fire is truly ruthless.
Tuesday, June 2, 2026
(Observing this spiritual circus of ‘integral yoga life coaches’)
The last century was the Time of Assassins.We are now at the Time of Imposters.Gilded impeccable ones.Don't know why but they invoke the same sense of horror in the pit of the stomach as the Nazis.Though I know that this is an absolutely disproportionate reaction.
This realization that nothing can be true until everything is.
The very fabric of life is so perverted that even with the descent of Light- it cannot embrace it without first moaning about its fallen state.
Because moan it must.
Thursday, June 4, 2026
The Supreme Truth can give one a Supreme Rapture.
I have known no other.
Saturday, June 13, 2026
The entire day- we secrete our own world just as a spider weaves its own web.
This pathetic way of existing is human life for you.
Oh Lord - may we not die of grief at the misery of our state before we can offer it to Thee.Awakening is lethal.
The warrior in me has been withdrawn because it is no longer the time to agitate in the old and futile way.The task now is to disappear- to melt into a Supreme Simplicity.
The moment the mind replaced consciousness- this tragedy began.And now we fight this hydra with its 1000 sneaky snakes assailing each moment of life.
The discovery of mental falsehood.....these thoughts of good and bad....this explanation of the world that we give to ourselves- the absolute ILLUSION of it all- the sensation is akin to the ground being pulled under our feet.Nothing can be true as long as it is in the mind- even the highest.
Agenda 1961
Sunday, June 14, 2026
Well, this movement (gesture of a rising flame) towards That must be constant—constant, total. All the rest is none of our business, and the less we meddle with it mentally, the better. But THAT, that Flame, is indispensable. And when it goes out, light it again; when it falters, rekindle it—all the time, all the time, ALL THE TIME—when sleeping, walking, reading, moving around, speaking... all the time.
- The Mother.
Monday, June 15, 2026
A golden little ball - a point of concentration.An anchor in this chaos.
To feel Her contact is to be in touch with the New Life.It comes as a promise and if one remains faithful- we will live this Life together here too.
A ‘clash-less’ victory is conceivable.
The desire for a confrontation is a false Vibration perpetuating itself.
(Hoping to end this phase of an open battle with the human species)
Tuesday, June 16, 2026
A deep aqua blue still liquid behind the heart.The true self. And the presence of Sri Aurobindo.
To become a more perfect warrior- egoless and transparent before marching on to conquer this abysmal human life.
Wednesday, June 17, 2026
Facing the naked fact of our human condition is tough.That's why life had invented all these embellishments.But when they are taken away from you....you sink in despair.It is an extreme condition- a bare-handed descent into the Night
Thursday, June 18, 2026
Suvirah- Prakasha and effectivity of the Tapas.Avira- sense of physical inability
(Record of Yoga)
Take refuge in the Supreme Reality.Be at all times in a state of Yoga.
Friday, June 19, 2026
The human has been shatteredCall in the Divine.
And stop fighting battles which have already been won.
The feeling that one stands before an open gate and fights some phantoms due to an outdated reflex mechanism instead of rushing in.That is the state of the present.
One day, even the struggle, the battle for the Future will be part of the phantoms.
In 1993- Satprem in his dream, sent a note to Sri Aurobindo through Champaklal writing- "I love Sri Aurobindo".
I found myself saying - "Yes, and I will make the last cell of this last abomination of matter say it too"
And I heard a faint Tathasthu.
Saturday, June 20, 2026
One has to be possessed by the vision of the Future.
Has earth and yoga on earth ever felt this sense of the Divine charging in to conquer his kingdom.This onward surge with all its power and will- shattering everything in its wake.O Supreme Being.
Ramprasad in the 18th century said-"From the Mother of the Universe, whose divine authority is absolute, I have received the clear order that Death must die."
Thursday, June 25, 2026
In acute crisis with the darkness of the world-One would do well to withdraw and tell the Divine-"Lord, please take care of Your own mess".
For there is only He.
Saturday, July 4, 2026
“If I had an ideal in life, it should have been dissolved. Let there be no more atoms of ME.”
-S
Wednesday , 15 July 2026 A white silver crystal- solid in mass- descended into the chest with a thud...a sensation of a massive heaviness that crushes the low regions under its weight causing them to scurry to take refuge in even lower layers maybe.
Tuesday , 21 July 2026 We are fighting against FALSE MATTER
-S.
Saturday , 25 July 2026 Cell by cell....inch by inch....step by step.....one walks over to the New World.
But for now, one only physically feels the soreness of the old world.
Monday , 27 July 2026
At the heart of MatterA massive descent at the base chakra...:the root of death. A heavy weight and unfortunately pain felt.
I used to observe that the New Consciousness has no Center in this body....it felt like this will be its Center. And it will radiate outwards from here. Saw in a flash the new chakra here as shown below. A light orange-yellow shade...with triangular flaps which I felt was 3 but geometrically difficult...so maybe 4 flaps facing each other like envelopes openings.
So perhaps, the next being will base itself not in the head and upper regions....but right at the heart of matter....the source of the physical mind....But it is physically quite difficult- have been in pain for 4 months.
The Center descending triangle of the current muldhara is replaced by 4 triangles facing each other and a scope of opening outwards at the Center…That was the most distinct feeling….just like you lift an envelope flap.
Tuesday , 28 July 2026 One has to abandon oneself like a baby in Sri Aurobindo's Hands.PHYSICALLY.
Tuesday , 28 July 2026
One has to- in each fiber of our being- lose- once and for all- the distinction between good health and bad health, pain and pain-free state....normality and abnormality. Things are never going to be normal again- for the standard of normalcy has been shattered.
Look around you- there is not one healthy person. So accept the state you are in and keep striving for something else.
Not a comfortable state, the NEXT STATE.
Sunday , 2 August 2026In a brief flash- a state of consciousness was felt- where falsehood doesn't have the time to be thought out...played out....
A rapid, timeless moment of concentration- where the stick doesn't bend- and hence no bent consequences follow.
It is our sense of time and space- that make the cage of the human species- and an alteration of this- is the alteration of our state.
Thursday, 6 August 2026 There is a physical state possible where the entire body breathes and nourishes itself with air....and not just the lungs. As if you let air in through the pores of your skin.
Thursday , 6 August 2026 The foe has launched itself so well within the human breast- that God can no longer destroy it without destroying Man.
The sword thus hangs in the air- but hesitates to strike the world.
For what will remain?
Friday , 7 August 2026
Problem of identificationYou have to identify yourself with the Force and not the Resistance.
It is as if a golden liquid is flowing into a narrow pipe- and it starts assuming itself to be the pipe and starts experiencing all the sensations of being a rigid pipe that is narrow and miserable ....when all it has to do is to KNOW and FLOW.
That is the entire human fall in a summary.
Friday , 7 August 2026 The golden bird is free.....and it soars across centuries.
Friday , 7 August 2026 This new age spirituality gives me the feeling of humanity crowding into a funnel that opens at a wall. It is hyperactivity- perhaps necessary and well meaning- but meeting a dead end. An airplane bound to crash- no matter how enjoyable and educational is the ride.
The ancient human animal found refuge once in the Age of Religion then the Age of Science and now in the Age of Spirituality?
Each of them is an excuse Mind finds to cheat his destiny.
Each will be surpassed- the day we are simply TRUE and in touch with A New Reality.
But it appears it is impossible for the species to be precisely that- transparent, pure and simple.
Sunday, 9 August 2026 Pure consciousness and Pure Being changes the time and space dimension.
This yoga will soon enter into a timeless or an 'other' time zone- and then this cage will crack.
Is that the end of the mental fishbowl?
Sunday, 9 August 2026
Observing the world today
The verdict of that gruesome battle of 1973- between the Avatars and human resistance, between the Old World and the New Life, perhaps finally is:Both sides have won.
A Divine Fiat.
One only needs to pick a side.
Tuesday , 11 August 2026 The only way to avoid a trap- is to constantly be in the flow.
The momentum of a stream takes care of everything- including your imperfections.
Friday , 14 August 2026From Manhood- to Soulhood.
Live as the True Purusha- not a weak, divided, impotent, bound animal. At all levels.
Saturday, 15 August 2026
O humanityO EarthLeap onto this Vast Wave that Is Sri Aurobindo.
Abandon your knowledge, your comprehension, your ability, your explanations…
Leap naked and blindfolded- for THAT has come to carry us to our Destiny in spite of ourselves.
The end of Man and the end of Impotence.
For here at last, within grasp is the POWER- that makes atoms spin into forging a species- and the one that smashes it to forge another.
O Man….
Although some of the experiences recounted here may appear momentous, they are, in truth, only fleeting flashes of perception. Realisation still lies far away.
One must therefore neither lose one's head nor one's footing.
In any case: on this path, there is no total Realisation so long as Death retains its claim upon the body.
Thus ends this phase of the journey. If the next can still be written, we shall know in time……
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