Read Ambu's correspondence with The Mother - from the period spanning 1933-1941
The Mother : correspondence
THEME/S
Born on 14 June 1909, the Gujarati disciple Ambu (Ambalal Desai) came to live in the Ashram on 19 May 1928 at the age of eighteen. The Mother affectionately called him her "Baby". His main work was cleaning the Mother's kitchen vessels, but he also worked in the Granary, nursed invalids and collected flowers. Later he was the Ashram's hatha yoga teacher. Ambu lived in the Ashram for sixty-four years, until his passing on 18 April 1993 at the age of eighty-three.
Ambu's correspondence with the Mother covers the period from 1933 to 1941.
I do not want the work of slaves; I want the work of free people who work because they feel benefited by it and for whom work is a source of joy and strength.
Whatever you cannot do in that spirit, it is better not to do.
11 January 1933
My lovely Ma,
I have inner eyes, but where are they? O my Ma, show me my inner eyes and how to open them.
Your inner eyes are in you as the tree is in the seed, let them grow.
18 December 1933
The design is the symbol of the descent of the Divine forces and the answer from the material world. The harmonious combination of both produces the four things I have written on the drawing: Divine Love, Light, and Life manifested in a Divine Perfection.
7 February 1934
O my Ma, lovely Ma,
Since two days I have been thinking: "How the hostile forces are playing with me and using me as their instrument." But O Ma, I can't stop their attacks. Only thinking. And through this thinking, sadness and depression are trying to come.
What is this temptation to fall once more into depression! I was so happy that you had surmounted that. The more the attacks are strong, the more we must keep firm in our position of complete trust in the Divine.
Always with you, loving and protecting
March 1934
Baby,
I am there, don't you know? Quick, open the curtain of the superficial consciousness and you will clearly see me.
With love and blessings
10 March 1934
It is good that you could overcome the attack. A victory in that domain is always the promise of greater victories.
15 April 1934
Dismiss the sadness at once; it is not a good friend, you must not make a companion of him.
I am always near you with love and blessings.
17 April 1934
To my Baby,
Let all the clouds, depressions and bad sensations disappear, to never come again. Let this day be a new birth and a new opening to the Divine's Light and Love.
With special blessings
24 April 1934
My Baby,
If you keep on being happy steadily, you are bound to recover from the weakness also.
4 May 1934
My dear Baby,
Let the clouds go and go for ever. The sun of happiness must shine so bright that they will be at once dissolved.
12 May 1934
(Written beside the sketch of a blue bird)
I am so happy that you have overcome the depression and wrote such a nice prayer. Yes, the purity will be yours and the happiness also, and here is the blue bird flying to you in all affection.
My love and blessings are with you always.
13 May 1934
(Written above the sketch of a swan)
Dear Baby,
Here is your soul (or rather its image) swimming happiness, strength and purity towards you.
With my love and blessings
15 May 1934
I am happy to see that you have decided to send the bad suggestions away. With them almost all of the mischief will go. With love and blessings
16 May 1934
There is no impossible miracle as an answer to a constant and sincere aspiration.
17 May 1934
When I go up, I always want to take you with me and try to pull you up; why do you not follow? ...
18 May 1934
I did not intend to ask from you something that you cannot do. If you truly let yourself go in my arms without resistance, I would take you anywhere, that is to say, into the Peace, the Strength and the happiness for which you are longing.
19 May 1934
We shall light a big fire in which all the difficulties will be burnt down and only the pure gold of happiness will remain.
23 May 1934
It is quite possible, if you have a great liking for this picture5 and you look at it very often, that you may make the substance with which it is done more plastic and receptive. Then it will manifest better the force hidden inside it and consequently its appearance will be improved.
24 May 1934
How can I remove a curtain that I have never put there? You must open your eyes (like the baby cats!) and then you will see.
With love and blessings always
26 May 1934
There is no message more beautiful than the assurance that the Divine Grace never fails those who trust in It.
27 May 1934
To my dear Baby,
Cheer up! The weakness is simply a bad habit of the body and the depression a bad habit of the heart. There is no truth behind them.
4 June 1934
When a box is full you can put nothing in it so it is useless; it is much better to be like an empty box which can be filled with all the treasures of the divine Love and Light.
With my blessings
6 June 1934
Surely, my dear Baby, I do not want to leave you in darkness and sorrow and I am pulling hard to get you out of "hell", but let me catch hold of your hand and do not slip away.
24 June 1934
Happy to hear that happiness has come back to you. Don't let it go any more, hold it tight.
27 June 1934
Yes, my dear Baby, it is rather important to get a steady faith, otherwise there is no end to the troubles. And the help is always there, you have only to make a proper use of it.
13 July 1934
Happy to hear that my dear Baby is happy. Happier shall I be if he becomes still happier...
14 July 1934
My dear Baby, I am keeping the one anna piece as a souvenir of a day when you have written that you are happy.
I am so happy when you are happy.
21 August 1934
I hope your happiness does not depend on any exterior reason but on an inner opening.
24 August 1934
I am not at all angry and want only that you should be always happy and contented.
15 September 1934
Do not resist the force that is working in you to make you happy. Open freely to it and you will see that all uneasiness will go.
18 September 1934
I am not forgetting you, I am not throwing your letters in the wastepaper basket ... and my force, love and blessings are always with you to lead you out of your difficulties.
25 September 1934
Yes, my dear Baby is sure to get purified not only in his body but in his mind and vital also.
With all love and blessings
28 September 1934
O Ma,
...I am not going to write more, but, O Ma, let X know who the inner divinity is. Explain to him about Thee and my Father.
O Ma, save him, save him!
Yes, my dear Baby, we are trying our best and have full hope to succeed. The right attitude and the aspiration of his true friends can help him much in the circumstance.
My love and blessings are always with you.
9 October 1934
If you remain always happy, the body will get all right in time.
23 October 1934
If you remain happy, the desires will not be able to catch hold of you, they will go away.
25 October 1934
Keep steadily your happiness and peace is sure to come, sending away the restlessness.
26 October 1934
I hope the "blind Baby" will soon open his psychic eyes and follow the mind no longer.
My love, help and blessings are always with you to obtain that result.
28 October 1934
Fear not, be not anxious, surely one day you will feel any presence and recognise me as your true mother always with you to help you with her love and blessings.
29 October 1934
O my lovely Ma,
Thy Love, Help and Blessings are with me. They are Thy nurses. Thy nurses are with me, but Thou art not with me! Thou keepest me with Thy nurses for care and Thou runnest away.
My "nurses" are myself; I do not see how you can make this distinction.
So now I shall say—instead of sending you my love and blessings—I am with you.
30 October 1934
I was not at all angry. I was simply joking. Can't you recognise a joke? I am so glad to hear that the happiness is steady in you now.
You can send your book. I shall see if I can write in it as you ask me to do.
1 November 1934
Yes, my dear Baby,
I am always in your heart bringing peace and certitude. I am always above your head pouring down Light and Ananda and I shall penetrate all your cells with an unshakable happiness.
6 November 1934
(Early in November the disciple sent to the Mother a bound notebook and asked her to write something for him every day in it. For the next six months, she wrote one page a day for him. Often she chose a sentence from one of the world's scriptures or from the works of various thinkers and sages. This book of sayings was later published under the title The Lesson of Life. In the following letters these sayings are sometimes mentioned.)
I have not waited for your heart to open. I have settled there already. Follow the advice of Saadi: contemplate your heart steadily and you will find me there.
8 November 1934
I am very happy to see that, in spite of what you say to the contrary, you have become somewhat wise and are able now to reject the wrong suggestions.
You must know that these sentences I send you, convey to you my love and blessings accumulated since centuries.
Always near you
13 November 1934
I meant that throughout the ages, by the mouth and writings of all the wise people, it is always the same eternal knowledge, the same eternal love, the blessings of the same eternal Consciousness that manifest and express themselves, and again now go to you when I write:
Love and blessings to my dear Baby
14 November 1934
Fear not, all struggles come to an end, all headaches go and the fire inside can be changed into a powerful means of progress, throwing down the resistance which is the cause of the pressure.
The force, the love and the protection are always with you. Blessings
15 November 1934
It is not I who have given you the "blindness and dullness" as you call them, it is the obscurity of the material world which I have come to fight and conquer...
16 November 1934
Very good, my dear Baby, you can make a shield of my love and an armour with my protection.
With blessings
Ma,
Today 1 have suffered too much. My body is breaking. In my chest I feel too much weakness.
Do not believe that your body is breaking; it is not true, your body is very strong and will be quite healthy as soon as the inner quiet and poise of your vital being will allow it to remain calm, balanced and restful.
19 November 1934
Your resolution to be a warrior against the forces of depression and sadness is an excellent one and you will always find me by your side for this good fight.
My love and blessings
22 November 1934
There is some inner part of your being where there is no struggle, take refuge there and you will be at ease ...
3 December 1934
Shake off the uneasiness—think of something nice—remain my faithful Baby.
13 January 1935
Ma!
What is the "Dhammapada"? What does it mean? It was written by whom?
The Dhammapada is the book containing the teachings of the Buddha (Cakya Muni). "Dhammapada" is a Pali word which means the foundation of the Law.
Love and blessings to my dear faithful Baby
15 January 1935
(The disciple asked the Mother about a sentence she had written in his notebook: "It is said in the Ecclesiasticus: 'I am the Mother of pure love and of science and of sacred hope.")
My dear faithful Baby,
The Ecclesiasticus is one of the Hebrew sacred books (not part of the Bible) and in the quoted sentence, it is the Mother speaking of herself.
20 February 1935
(In the disciple's notebook the Mother wrote: "Thales has said: 'Wherever you find movement, there you find life and a soul.' " The disciple asked:)
What does "movement" mean—any kind of movement? It is better to explain the whole sentence.
Yes, any kind of movement, even in a plant. It is a way of saying that the divine consciousness is everywhere.
With love and blessings to my very dear and faithful Baby
19 March 1935
Baby! ...
Before inferring that I have done this or that, with no other basis than your own imagination, you ought to think twice and not forget that you have promised to be faithful.
28 March 1935
My Love,
What is the meaning of "service"?
The work that is done not for oneself but as a disinterested offering to the Divine.
With love and blessings to my dear faithful Baby
29 March 1935
Who was Hermes?
Hermes Trismegistus is the name given by the Greeks to a great initiate who founded in Egypt the occult science and was deified under the name of Thoth thousands of years ago.
6 April 1935
Why do you call yourself an unlucky fellow? Is it so unlucky to have come here? Let this eighth year bring to you a constant happiness.
19 May 1935
My body is very tired and my mind also. I feel weakness in all the limbs.
I am very sorry to hear that you are so tired. Either you must take rest, or you must see the doctor and let him give you something to cheer you up.
22 May 1935
To rush a little less is possible and also not possible, because I started the work and now I must finish it. Only a few days are left.
Yes, I suppose you are right. Now that you have begun it is difficult to stop before the work is finished. But let it be finished by the end of this month and after that you must truly "rush less" and not get tired as you are getting now.
Our love and blessings are always with you.
27 May 1935
My dear faithful child,
The doctor says that you ought to lead a quieter life, to take more rest and more food. Will you not try to do so?
With our love and blessings always
7 June 1935
(For the disciple's birthday)
Let this day be a very happy day and the first of 365 very happy days.
With love and blessings.
14 June 1935
O my Love,
I am feeling uneasiness in my nerves. I feel weakness. My limbs are tired.
How can I not be sorry when I hear that you are unwell? And what to do to give strength to your nerves? It is only quietness, inside and outside, that can make the nerves strong.
22 June 1935
Quite happy. Very happy. But during the day some moments pass that are unbearable. In the heart I feel uneasiness.
When you feel uneasy, do one thing: take the notebook in which I have written so many sentences and open it at any page. I am sure you will receive therein the answer you need.
1 July 1935
To my dear faithful Baby,
Not displeased, but astonished that X's will should have more weight with you than mine ... Love and blessings
3 July 1935
You are not ungrateful and unfaithful, but if you were to go it would be an act of very great unfaithfulness and ungratefulness, so I am quite sure that you will not go.
My love for you will prevent you from doing it and my blessings will carry you safely through the darkness and make you recover your happiness and strength.
5 July 1935
I feel depressed.
It is the arrival of all these outsiders. Don't worry and keep quiet inside as much as you can and the depression will go.
8 August 1935
Not depressed! Once more opened to my love and blessings, is it not?
11 August 1935
If you want me to help you, you must let me know what is the matter.
24 August 1935
Keep faith and courage, the trouble will soon be over and then you will recover your normal condition, happy and strong.
29 August 1935
I see no reason why you should not be happy. Happiness is sure to come when you will become conscious and master of yourself.
4 September 1935
I am so sorry to hear that your body is suffering. Yet I hope you will soon recover.
Love and blessings
5 September 1935
I am not at all displeased with you, but I am sorry that you feel yourself sunk down in despair. I wish you would make a strong effort. If you make a resolute effort, you will surely come out of it.
8 September 1935
I quite understand that you need rest and I would fully agree if you took a few days rest. But I fear the rest you need is not physical; it is your heart, so to say, that needs rest—and that rest, are you ready to take it?
9 September 1935
I meant by rest, real rest—separating yourself from all contacts that trouble and exhaust you and resting inwardly in me.
It is ignorant to speak of death as a rest. By dying one does not enter into rest; consciousness continues and the same feelings that one had in life. If you died with these feelings of trouble and despondency in you, they would continue after death with greater intensity. Nothing would be gained by that.
To be free from these things you have to overcome them in life here and that can only be done by throwing away their cause.
10 September 1935
How much I wish that all this unhappiness and uneasiness should come to an end! But won't you unite your will to mine?
12 September 1935
Take refuge in your faithfulness, trust my love and blessings and you will feel better.
15 September 1935
You know that my help is with you to overcome the difficulties and my love and blessings to give you strength and courage.
18 September 1935
Love and blessings to my very dear and very faithful Baby.
Now rest, rest, rest and gather a mountain of strength and energy.
19 September 1935
It is the natural consequence of the sudden diminution of work.
Be quiet and all depression will go.
20 September 1935
I am quite sure that you might say many times: "I am happy", and truly be so.
Love and blessings, always
28 September 1935
Would you not take some cod-liver oil? It might help your nerves to recover. If you agree, ask some from the doctor. Surely we must find a way of making you recover your energy.
9 October 1935
You must not lose hope in the recovery of your body. You are so young, it is sure to become strong again. Keep faith and confidence, it will help to bring the recovery soon.
22 October 1935
My dear Baby is a faithful Baby. I love him very much and I know he loves me also.
Certainly it would be very sad if your body lost its health and indeed very sad also if you joined the troop of those who abuse us.
But are these two calamities quite unavoidable? Still I do not believe so ...
My love wishes to keep hope and my blessings try to help you.
I knew quite well that you were late for the pranam and sorry for it.
24 October 1935
I am quite convinced that to go away from here would not in the least improve the condition of your body.
Love and blessings to you
2 November 1935
I hope you will courageously go through the struggle and win the victory over depression, gaining back a lasting happiness. My force will always help you in the fight whenever you ask for it.
9 November 1935
If you feel so tired, I suppose you will have to stop doing work.
I hope you are not taking less food.
All love and blessings to my dear faithful Baby
12 November 1935
I hope you will feel more and more at home here in my love and blessings.
17 November 1935
O my lovely Ma!
For two days the idea of going away from here is giving me trouble. I have a strong desire to go. The idea rises up in me strongly: "Once I have to go, I ought to go. This place is not for me." Ideas of this kind are coming. They make my head hot and restless and trouble me.
I fear these bad ideas are the present X has given you in exchange for all the care and trouble you have taken for him. These ideas are falsehoods; you must not listen to them. Your place and home are here in my love and protection.
29 November 1935
What wast Thou saying to me at Pranam time?
I was telling you not to be sad because of passing friendships and unlasting loves—that you can always take refuge on my lap and feel at home in my arms.
4 December 1935
Surely you must be successful in your fight and the bad ideas must run away.
My love and blessings are always with you in the struggle for the Victory.
9 December 1935
Keep firm on the side of your soul. The struggle is sure to pass away and the peace and joy will be more firmly established than before.
My help, love and blessings are always with you.
10 December 1935
Love and blessings to my dear faithful Baby who must be full of faith.
12 December 1935
I understand quite well your case and am full of sympathy, but... what can be done? The only thing I can do is to help you to overcome your desires if you have the will to overcome them.
Love and blessings always
15 December 1935
I do not see how to go and suffer more can be a solution of the problem ...
At least here you can be sure of my love and help.
16 December 1935
There is between us a bondage of true affection which is stronger than the desires and the dissatisfaction, even the restlessness. I do not think it is a fear of the kind you mention that keeps you here, it is because deep down in your heart there is love for Sri Aurobindo and myself.
And there also you know that we love you.
17 December 1935
You have done for me much more than you believe. I know that you are trying your best to please me and get over the depression, and I am sure you will soon succeed.
29 December 1935
I am so sorry to hear that you are unwell. Are you still following the treatment?
30 December 1935
You are very generous and the box is very fine but I am quite sure that you are in need of such a box to put all sorts of small things in it and I would be very pleased if you kept it. So I am sending it back to you with my love and blessings.
P.S. Do you not think, as you are feeling so often unwell, that it would be wiser to resume the treatment and continue it patiently for some time at least?
2 January 1936
Remember the Gita—let your chariot be driven by the Divine and you are sure of the Victory.
Our love, blessings and help are always with you
13 January 1936
Let me light in your heart the fire of the conquering will and the acuteness of the struggle will disappear.
My love and blessings are always with you
14 January 1936
I hope the mind will soon be able to throw away the sadness and the depression and the happiness will be complete.
16 January 1936
The eyes which can see and recognise me are eyes of the heart, not those of the head.
19 January 1936
Yes, I know that you love me and I also love you very heartily. But it seems to me that it is not me whom you cannot make happy—it is yourself by thinking all sorts of things that are not true; for it is not true that you have been unable to do something for me. On the contrary you have always been useful and in some cases truly helpful—and when you manage to be happy I am fully satisfied.
If only you could feel my love and blessings that are always with you ...
22 January 1936
No condition is ever lasting, even the bad things come to an end. We have only, when there is a storm, to keep quiet and be patient—the storm will stop and the happy sun will make its reappearance.
My love and blessings are with you to help and strengthen.
23 January 1936
You must write what you have to say—and be sure that I will always understand you—even if I do not answer.
27 January 1936
No, I have not any impression that you and X are constantly practising "asanas". Y simply told me that you were both experts in that art and that he had seen you taking the most difficult postures.
29 January 1936
I am not at all angry, I am only sorry not to be able to pull you out of that condition.
My love and blessings always
1 February 1936
All I ask you is to be still patient for some time more.
With all my love I am trying to help you.
7 February 1936
If you are so very tired will you stop the granary work for a time and take some rest?
15 March 1936
I have no intention of being cruel and with all my heart I wish to pull you out of your difficulties. But to change the outward nature needs time and perseverance. So you must be courageous and have patience.
Never doubt my love and care.
3 April 1936
It seems that you have been again very tired today. I would like you to stop your work for a time.
9 April 1936
I do not understand what you mean when you say that you have "betrayed me and deceived me" and also I do not see in all that any clear reasons why you should go. But I am very sorry that you are thus harassed by these mischievous suggestions.
13 April 1936
I am not at all displeased but a little sorry because of your bad health. Anyhow I hope it will soon be better. We are informing the doctor that you will go to him today.
17 April 1936
I am very happy to see you at pranam and meditation and so very happy that you are getting better.
21 April 1936
I am quite sure that all your weaknesses will leave you one after the other in due time.
22 April 1936
Do not worry and keep patient—all the clouds and depressions will go little by little and never come back again.
23 April 1936
The steadiness also will come in its time, and along with it the peace and the happiness. There is only to be patient for a little time more.
24 April 1936
It is not the physical consciousness, neither the vital nor even the mental that can recognise. It is only the psychic when it wakes up and comes to the front. Your psychic has recognised me long ago and it is that that keeps you here. For your usual consciousness it is still behind the veil, but now you must tear open the veil and you will see.
19 May 1936
X has given me your note to him. Be sure that I fully appreciate the kindness of your intention in writing to him; but, to say the truth, the way in which he or any other sadhak makes pranam to me must remain a matter between him and me and no one can intervene. Nor could any intervention in a matter like that be at all helpful.
22 May 1936
It is not your own feeling, it is a suggestion that comes from outside. You have simply not to pay any attention to it.
3 June 1936
Surely I am helping and will continue to help you until you have found me seated in your heart.
28 September 1936
All this climbing down the scale of weight is not very satisfactory. I hope next time it will be better.
My love and blessings are with you.
5 October 1936
No wonder that you are depressed. It is that you need rest and I expect you will take the rest you need.
7 October 1936
This sensitiveness to the suggestion of fear is surely due to nervous strain and fatigue. With a little rest and perhaps some medicines from the doctor, all that meaningless fear will vanish.
Our love, blessings and help are always with you.
9 October 1936
If you fear me, how can I help you? Yet my love and blessings are with you.
27 October 1936
Don't be discouraged. Let your heart of hearts remain firm and steady in its faith. Try to take refuge there—the storm will pass away.
My love, help and blessings are always with you.
7 November 1936
Is it not interesting to succeed in difficult things?
I know that you are trying your best and I appreciate very much your effort. On my side, my love and help are with you to lead you to Victory.
Blessings
9 November 1936
Persevere in your will to reject the attack and you are sure of the Victory.
10 November 1936
Indeed, my dear faithful Baby is truly courageous, and courage is sure to win the victory. I am happy for it and send him my love and blessings.
13 November 1936
Do not mind the struggle, do not let it make you sad. This struggle is unavoidable but it is sure to come to a happy end. Just now you are progressing very nicely.
21 December 1936
When I spoke of progress I did not mean a diminution in the struggle but an increase in your receptivity. Since a few days I felt you more open to my force and I could work in you more easily.
22 December 1936
You have given me the work of picking flowers and giving flowers to people when they need them. I have been doing all this as best I can. Now X, who has been given only the work of garden organisation, has begun to interfere and give away flowers himself.
Don't you think he ought to refer people to me and say, "It is his work", for harmony and accurate results? When I told him this, he said, "Complain to Mother and I will answer her."
Evidently all these things have to be adjusted and I shall see to it. But during these days, when the Ashram is filled with visitors, it is surely not a time for quarrels but for work done harmoniously in a spirit of collaboration without insisting on personal considerations.
21 November 1937
Let this 12th year which begins for you be the year of illumination.
19 May 1939
My special blessings for his birthday.
As for the work I am somewhat embarrassed because there are many places where you can do useful work. But is there nothing that you would do with more pleasure?
14 June 1939
I am not at all displeased with your work and I ask you to go on doing it as before. I told you myself that I wanted you to be free so that if you were needed to help someone or another you would be able to do it.
As for the plucking of the flowers I must ask you not to climb on the "realisation" tree nor on the champa; we shall have to wait for the flowers to fall down to pick them up.
I hope the clouds are quite gone now, with my love and blessings.
7 May 1940
Mamma, my Life,
Tomorrow is my birthday. I will finish 31.
Mamma? I want to ask you something. A few years back you told someone, as far as I remember, that I am near to you from within but far far away outwardly from you.
I do not remember having said anything like that, but of one thing you can be sure, it is that you are much closer to me now than a few years back.
I know you have no time, but it comes in my mind so I am asking you: When will you see my asana postures?
I am thinking of asking you to come tomorrow for the "asanas". The best time for me is 6.30 p.m. when I have finished on the staircase, before going down for meditation. As you are coming tomorrow for your birthday, you can come up and instead of going down you will come in with me and show me your postures in my room.
13 June 1941
Mama,
What shall I ask you on my birthday? I don't know. I can't think. I can't pray. Give me what you wish. That is my wish-prayer-desire.
Let more and more love grow in me, let me be Thine, Thy faithful baby, Thy eternal baby, Thy eternal smiling baby.
Let the year which begins for you today bring you the fulfilment of your highest aspirations.
With my love and special blessings
14 June 1941
You are not taking too much freedom, you are not behaving badly, you are not misusing my affection and kindness. So remain happy and do not worry.
29 September 1941
UNDATED LETTERS OF THE PERIOD 1934-1936
The red lotus is the Avatar.
The white lotus is the Divine Consciousness.
In a prayer you ask something from the Divine—in a meditation you contemplate and express a truth.
Ma, what is perfection?
To be exactly what the Divine wants of us.
O Ma!
Ananda, Peace, Purity in me so I can do as Thou wishest. What must I do so I can become helpful to Thee?
Receive fully what I give you; like that you can help me in my work for you.
The great secret for receiving is to give oneself. Give yourself unreservedly to the Divine and you will receive fully the Divine's Love and Happiness.
You say that you want to become conscious of my presence in you; is it not your goal?
First you must want it, and then you must try again and again to concentrate deep inside your heart.
Open your mind like a silent cave and I shall come in there also.
Surely you must feel that I have come ... prepare a nice quiet place for me in your mind and I will always remain there.
It is because you allow the discontentment to come that you cannot feel the presence of "Mother" who is always with you, helping, protecting and loving.
Often in the day my faith gets shaken. My days are passing in struggle. Thy love and presence 1 forget.
Yes, you must steadily push away all that stands between you and me, like doubts and restlessness and depression. And then you will feel my constant presence, which is a fact.
Ma! First push out sadness and depression. Establish Thy Ananda, Peace and Happiness...
Keep firm and courageous—the attack will pass and you will feel quite well once more.
I am always with you.
O Ma, Your Peace! Give me strength to fight against hostile forces. O Ma, come! Make the way...
Let your trust in the help grow and the struggle will soon be over.
Yes, if you remain steady and throw away the attacks, they are obliged to leave you and finally they will come no more. Just look carefully and listen silently and you are sure to find me there, in the quiet stillness of your heart.
This is quite a good resolution. Yes, we will stand and fight together and conquer these bad enemies: sadness and depression. They must not be allowed to approach you anymore.
I also cannot understand why you allow yourself to be in that condition. You must try to become more conscious and less passively open to anything and everything that wants to catch hold of you.
Shake off this unpleasant state and recover your true condition of happiness.
My help and love are always with you, but you must make use of them.
My dear Baby will be entirely happy when he will listen to truth instead of listening to falsehood and believing the false things that people tell him against me.
I did not mock, I did not laugh. I smiled as usual with all my affection. Is it that something is tormenting you that you felt in that way?
Ma, come into my mind. Purify my mind, live within it, make it wide, fill it with Thy thoughts.
O my lovely Ma, Come! I can't keep patient. When will it be all right? O Ma, come!
Why so much hurry? You are progressing well now. Be a little more patient and all will be soon all right.
...suddenly I awoke and jumped from my bed. At this moment I heard a fierce sound outside. My body began to tremble. Again I went to bed but still my body was trembling. In the sleep also I felt unwell.
You are quite right in not getting upset, but you must overcome the fear also. You must learn not to be frightened by anything; and when fear tries to approach you, you must think: "My Mother is with me, what harm can happen to me?"
Do not lose courage. One day the Light will catch hold of your body and all your miseries will go.
Why do you think that your body is weak? If you are sure that it is strong, it will become quite healthy and strong.
There is no question of your breaking down. Be fully confident: you will reach the goal.
Lovely Ma!
Give me your finger and lead me...
I am quite ready to give you the help not only of a finger but of the full hand.
Come to me in your sleep, my dear faithful Baby. You will be always welcomed.
Yes, rest with your head on my lap and my love in your heart.
Do you not know that your happiness is me? .. .
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