Mother has found the 'new consciousness': 'these cells, other cells, it was life and consciousness everywhere, all bodies were this body!' SALVATION is PHYSICAL.
Now Mother has found the "passage", what she calls "the new consciousness," the one capable of opening up a new world to us, just as the first breaking of the watery mirror by an amphibian opened up a new air to us: "I don't know what is happening, there's a state of intense vibration, like waves of lightning rapidity, so rapid that they see motionless. And then I go off to America, to Europe.... This body has never been so happy: these cells, other cells, it was life everywhere, consciousness everywhere, all bodies were this body!...." And all our physiological misery vanishes by the same token: "There is a sort of dilation of the cells, the sense of boundaries lessons, fades away, and the pains vanish physically." And it isn't "another world," it is this earth, our earth but lived otherwise: "As if we had entered an unreal falsehood, and everything disappears once you get out of it - it simply does not exist! And all the artificial means of getting out of it, including Nirvana, are worthless. SALVATION IS PHYSICAL! It is here, right here. All the rest, death included, really becomes a falsehood - there is no such thing as "disappearing", no "life vs death"!...." And as she breaks through the walls of our bowl, the whole world is in revolt - including Mother's entourage - as if it were under the pressure of a new air: "A considerable number of desires for it to die [Mother's body]; everywhere, they are everywhere!.... The whole gamut of feelings around me, from anxiety, eagerness for it to be over quickly, to impatient desires: free at last!.... I don't want to be put in a box, the cells are conscious.... What is going to happen? I don't know. It runs contrary to all habits." A new species is quite contrary to the old habits of the world - will the world accept it, or wind up killing it off?
What do you have to tell me? Me, I have nothing to say...
Are you tired?
It's going on.... The difficulties of those around, of the work, of people, keep increasing, from health to understanding (there seems to be a general crisis), but the Help and the Power keep increasing too. It's like a sort of demonstration.
But the difficulties are taking on rather unpleasant proportions.
(long silence)
Children are nicer and nicer!... The NEW children are truly remarkable. Today I saw V's little girl: she's two years old, I think, but she is as children used to be at the age of six or seven. Alert, intelligent... It's strange.
What do you have to say?
I have a vague impression that I had something to tell you, but I don't know...
(Then Mother shows a brochure of "=1" on education in Auroville)
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...Anyway, it's not bad.
I don't know if it's wrong, but I am no longer interested in any "problem." I no longer ask myself any questions at all. The speculative mind doesn't interest me.
Oh, but I might be responsible!... Because for me, that's pretty much like chatter.
Nothing interests me anymore, except something else that I am waiting for.
Something that must come, yes, that's right.
So all the rest... People give me books, give me letters, but I am not interested.
That's it.
So she [the brochure's author] wants to see me....
I find all this so futile!
Yes, it's something ELSE.
Yes.
Something WHOLLY OTHER...
...which must come.
Exactly.
So all these embellishments of the present are uninteresting, I find.
Exactly And the whole day long, from morning to night, they pester me with fuss of this sort (Mother points to the brochure).
And she wants to see me....
Would you like me to read the brochure and give you an account of it?
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No, I've read it (not read but listened to it): it's words. It's not bad, but it's words.
Only, she takes it seriously: it's "education in Auroville."
But I am so aware that it's the mind indulging in itself, and going on indulging, so... And if you try to get them out of it, they no longer understand anything. So the best is to let them. But I don't see why we should bother to read their stories.
No, really, mental life seems to... go round in circles.
There's such a mixture!... (It's Pavitra who read it out to me yesterday evening.) Suddenly there's a sentence from Sri Aurobindo, then a sentence from Y. [the brochure author], then suddenly a sentence from me, then suddenly one from M. (who has become a great guru)....
They've asked me for articles—not they, others. I said, "What on earth can I say!..." It doesn't come, I am not interested.
Oh, they've asked you...
But going by the echoes from Europe, you get a sense of a huge balloon swelling and swelling more and more (economically, financially, mechanically) and about to burst—it has to burst... into something else. And the Mind is part of this balloon.
Yes, yes, it's the Mind that seems to have swollen as much as it can, almost to bursting. It's exactly that.
I was wondering about this: Will it take... a complete bankruptcy of the Mind for people to understand?... Will it burst to end in a zero?
So I am constantly asked for messages (not articles because I no longer write any), but Y wants me to see her and to "note down" what I will tell her. But I know very well that everything I will say will be completely distorted.
One would like to be able to... keep a little quiet.
And they take it all so seriously! They think it's so important....
Constantly, the only thing I feel like saying to all these people is, SOMETHING ELSE... SOMETHING ELSE...
Yes, exactly.
I feel there's nothing else to answer.
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(Mother goes into a long contemplation, then speaks in English)
I could remain for hours like this!1
A great Peace has come down. Did you feel that?...
(Satprem:) Yes.
(Mother) And then it becomes wide, wide, wide....
(silence, then Mother speaks in French again)
I find it very comfortable!
(Satprem lays his head on Mother's knees, then Mother looks at him for a long time)
It's like BIG eyes looking (Mother gestures to show about eight inches). I have a feeling of BIG eyes looking....
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