Others too had to understand Her secret - her own disciples, Nations. Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? '... The body knows that the work will go on and on and on...'
The last turning point of Mother's yoga, and she comes out of it with this cry: "I have walked a long, long time. There was nothing but a constant cry, as if everything were torn away from me. It was the whole problem of the world." And this Agenda is more and more strewn with heartrending little cries. It was not enough to have found the secret for herself, the others too had to understand, her own disciples, Nations locked in their egoistic power: "They have no faith! 'She is old, she is old', an atmosphere of resistance to the change; 'it is impossible, impossible' from all sides.... Not a single minute should be wasted - I am in a hurry.... The reign of the Divine must, oh, must come!.... If the entire Russian block were to turn to the right side, that would be an enormous support! The victory is certain, but I don't know which path will be followed to reach it.... We must cling, cling so tightly to Truth.... They don't listen to me any more." She is 93, groping her way into the unknown: "I see more clearly with eyes closed than with eyes open, and it is a physical vision, purely physical, but a kind of physical that seems more complete. The consciousness of the cells is what has to change, all the rest will follow naturally! I have the feeling I am on my way to discovering the illusion that must be destroyed so that physical life may go on uninterrupted - death is the result of a distortion of consciousness." Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? "Only a violent death could halt the transformation; otherwise the body knows that the work will go on and on and on...." And this cry again: "There will be a miracle! But what, I don't know."
(Mother gives Satprem a note she has just written.)
Our human consciousness has windows opening on the Infinite. But generally men keep the windows tightly closed. We must open them wide and let the Infinite penetrate us freely to transform us. Two conditions are required to open the windows. 1) Ardent aspiration. 2) Progressive abolition of the ego. The divine help is assured to those who set to work sincerely.
(Mother goes on looking above Satprem's head as if she were seeing something. Then she plunges within.)
What did you see?
(Mother shakes her head negatively several times, then plunges again)
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The work being done is constant. And I see now that the body seems to be used as a... (what?) a connecting point (gesture like a channel going through Mother), like that. But without its even knowing it. Because the action is very vast, you see—very vast and complex—and the consciousness is not aware of all the details: it only feels the Force working, that's all. And that's constant, day and night, nonstop.
My nights. I don't have the impression of sleeping, but time goes by without my noticing it, like that, simply feeling the Forces going through.... But I don't know what they do—I know they're going through [Mother] and are focused here or there. But I have no curiosity; just the impressions of being very quiet so the process can go on unhindered—so that nothing creates an obstacle to the passing of the forces at work.
And hour after hour, hour after hour, day after day it's like that. With the impression that the time goes by unnoticed. Not long, not....
(Mother goes off)
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