Others too had to understand Her secret - her own disciples, Nations. Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? '... The body knows that the work will go on and on and on...'
The last turning point of Mother's yoga, and she comes out of it with this cry: "I have walked a long, long time. There was nothing but a constant cry, as if everything were torn away from me. It was the whole problem of the world." And this Agenda is more and more strewn with heartrending little cries. It was not enough to have found the secret for herself, the others too had to understand, her own disciples, Nations locked in their egoistic power: "They have no faith! 'She is old, she is old', an atmosphere of resistance to the change; 'it is impossible, impossible' from all sides.... Not a single minute should be wasted - I am in a hurry.... The reign of the Divine must, oh, must come!.... If the entire Russian block were to turn to the right side, that would be an enormous support! The victory is certain, but I don't know which path will be followed to reach it.... We must cling, cling so tightly to Truth.... They don't listen to me any more." She is 93, groping her way into the unknown: "I see more clearly with eyes closed than with eyes open, and it is a physical vision, purely physical, but a kind of physical that seems more complete. The consciousness of the cells is what has to change, all the rest will follow naturally! I have the feeling I am on my way to discovering the illusion that must be destroyed so that physical life may go on uninterrupted - death is the result of a distortion of consciousness." Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? "Only a violent death could halt the transformation; otherwise the body knows that the work will go on and on and on...." And this cry again: "There will be a miracle! But what, I don't know."
(Concerning a letter by Sri Aurobindo strictly forbidding sexual relations among disciples. Mother had several thousand copies of the letter printed with the following title: "Conditions for living in the Ashram and becoming a disciple.")
"...To master the sex-impulse,—to become so much master of the sex-centre that the sexual energy would be drawn upwards, not thrown outwards and wasted—it is so indeed that the force in the seed can be turned into a primal physical energy supporting all the others, retas into ojas. But no error can be more perilous than to accept the immixture of the sexual desire and some kind of subtle satisfaction of it and look on this as a part of the sadhana. It would be the most effective way to head straight towards spiritual downfall and throw into the atmosphere forces that would block the supramental descent, bringing instead the descent of adverse vital powers to disseminate disturbance and disaster. This deviation must be absolutely thrown away, should it try to occur and expunged from the consciousness, if the Truth is to be brought down and the work is to be done." Sri Aurobindo Letters on Yoga, XXIV.1507
"...To master the sex-impulse,—to become so much master of the sex-centre that the sexual energy would be drawn upwards, not thrown outwards and wasted—it is so indeed that the force in the seed can be turned into a primal physical energy supporting all the others, retas into ojas. But no error can be more perilous than to accept the immixture of the sexual desire and some kind of subtle satisfaction of it and look on this as a part of the sadhana. It would be the most effective way to head straight towards spiritual downfall and throw into the atmosphere forces that would block the supramental descent, bringing instead the descent of adverse vital powers to disseminate disturbance and disaster. This deviation must be absolutely thrown away, should it try to occur and expunged from the consciousness, if the Truth is to be brought down and the work is to be done."
Sri Aurobindo Letters on Yoga, XXIV.1507
That's the message I am distributing today.
There are many cases of people who ought to go away from here, but.... But you see, they're here, and when the baby is due to come, they go to Auroville! While me, "I think they're in
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Auroville." Several cases. So I decided to publish that. I should add to it the message where I say, "Needless to say that those who aspire to Truth must abstain from telling lies."1 (Mother makes a gesture of giving a staggering blow.)
There are lots, lots of cases in fact.
You see, they say, "Mother is old, she doesn't go out anymore, she can't see anymore, she doesn't know what's going on." But I know what's going on—I have other ways of seeing! (Laughter)
A little later
The other day I spoke to you about one of Sri Aurobindo's aphorisms, and you said, "Yes, we must publish it." Shall we publish it in the August Bulletin?... It was this aphorism:
228—He who will not slay when God bids him, works in the world an incalculable havoc.
We can't put that in! (Mother puts her head in her hands) A lot of people have the impudence to claim they receive the command of God—a lot of murderers.
Well, that's true.
That would encourage them! (Laughter)
It's true, it's a two-edged sword.
It would give justification to too many things. Nowadays they kill so easily!... Oh, we can't put that in!
They have distorted the meaning of things I have said.... I am constantly receiving letters from people—it seems to be a widespread malady. People come into your home and say, "Your hour has come." They came into the house of someone who knows us and said, "Your hour has come, give us your pistol." So he said, "All right, let me get my pistol and I'll give it to you." He opened a drawer and some cartridges fell out, so one of the hoodlums bent down to pick the cartridges up. And that man shot him with his
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revolver. So all the others ran away. But mostly it ends the other way—with a murder. It happened in his house. And in America if you walk down the street, they shoot at you. Everywhere. It's a spreading madness. Or else they stab you with a knife—for no reason whatsoever, nobody knows why. And some of them say, "I am God-inspired...."
(silence)
You know, it's like a universal outburst of falsehood. It's frightening. They take the teachings and twist them—they use them as a justification.
Do you have something?
The Russian translator is giving up.
(Mother goes within)
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