Others too had to understand Her secret - her own disciples, Nations. Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? '... The body knows that the work will go on and on and on...'
The last turning point of Mother's yoga, and she comes out of it with this cry: "I have walked a long, long time. There was nothing but a constant cry, as if everything were torn away from me. It was the whole problem of the world." And this Agenda is more and more strewn with heartrending little cries. It was not enough to have found the secret for herself, the others too had to understand, her own disciples, Nations locked in their egoistic power: "They have no faith! 'She is old, she is old', an atmosphere of resistance to the change; 'it is impossible, impossible' from all sides.... Not a single minute should be wasted - I am in a hurry.... The reign of the Divine must, oh, must come!.... If the entire Russian block were to turn to the right side, that would be an enormous support! The victory is certain, but I don't know which path will be followed to reach it.... We must cling, cling so tightly to Truth.... They don't listen to me any more." She is 93, groping her way into the unknown: "I see more clearly with eyes closed than with eyes open, and it is a physical vision, purely physical, but a kind of physical that seems more complete. The consciousness of the cells is what has to change, all the rest will follow naturally! I have the feeling I am on my way to discovering the illusion that must be destroyed so that physical life may go on uninterrupted - death is the result of a distortion of consciousness." Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? "Only a violent death could halt the transformation; otherwise the body knows that the work will go on and on and on...." And this cry again: "There will be a miracle! But what, I don't know."
You haven't spoken of Sri Aurobindo in a long time.
Me, I have nothing to say.
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What about Sri Aurobindo, is he saying anything?
(after a silence)
He's very busy with... (gesture to the north) with everything happening in the country.
It's serious, you know.
But what is India waiting for?
Waiting for what?
Well, to recognize that country.1
Oh, she has recognized it!
No, Mother, she hasn't.
They told me....
She has expressed her "sympathy," that's all. But she hasn't recognized it.
I received news from the government today. They told me they were waiting to hear from America before granting official recognition.2
Good.... Well, it's about time.
(silence)
But she shouldn't need America to do that!
It's against China, you see. China is the only country that supports Pakistan.3
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I think the whole world is waiting for India to recognize Bangladesh in order to follow suit—they're waiting for it.
Not quite—they've all made up their mind.4
Because a lot of people are dying up there.
Oh!... (Mother makes a gesture of horror) it's dreadful.
Yes.
It's a massacre.
Yes. And then every day they send troops [West Pakistan] and tanks and planes.... It seems to me.... I don't know... there's no time to lose.
But India should have the courage to intervene, Mother.
(Mother goes deep within, then, after a long time, makes a gesture as if to say, "What can be done?" and goes back within)
This very morning they asked me what should be done, but they don't.... They ask, but they do just what they think.
We'll see.... I have only one means, you know, it's... (gesture of pressing the Force upon the world). All I can do (same gesture) is to put pressure with the Force.
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