Others too had to understand Her secret - her own disciples, Nations. Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? '... The body knows that the work will go on and on and on...'
The last turning point of Mother's yoga, and she comes out of it with this cry: "I have walked a long, long time. There was nothing but a constant cry, as if everything were torn away from me. It was the whole problem of the world." And this Agenda is more and more strewn with heartrending little cries. It was not enough to have found the secret for herself, the others too had to understand, her own disciples, Nations locked in their egoistic power: "They have no faith! 'She is old, she is old', an atmosphere of resistance to the change; 'it is impossible, impossible' from all sides.... Not a single minute should be wasted - I am in a hurry.... The reign of the Divine must, oh, must come!.... If the entire Russian block were to turn to the right side, that would be an enormous support! The victory is certain, but I don't know which path will be followed to reach it.... We must cling, cling so tightly to Truth.... They don't listen to me any more." She is 93, groping her way into the unknown: "I see more clearly with eyes closed than with eyes open, and it is a physical vision, purely physical, but a kind of physical that seems more complete. The consciousness of the cells is what has to change, all the rest will follow naturally! I have the feeling I am on my way to discovering the illusion that must be destroyed so that physical life may go on uninterrupted - death is the result of a distortion of consciousness." Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? "Only a violent death could halt the transformation; otherwise the body knows that the work will go on and on and on...." And this cry again: "There will be a miracle! But what, I don't know."
There is something from Nolini.... A thought came to him and he wrote it down; it's about Mujibur, the man who led the revolution in Bangladesh and whom they imprisoned.
Yes, he is now in Pakistan.
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I don't know. But a thought came to Nolini and he wrote it down:
Mujibur's Bengal risked her body but saved her soul. Indira's India neither risked her body nor saved her soul.
I refuse. I don't want to say anything against Indira!
Yes, but what happened is that he wrote this down, left it on his table, and as usual people go by; they saw it, took it, copied it, and passed it around.
Oh!... That's going to get us into great trouble! It's very regrettable—very regrettable. I didn't want to say anything against Indira.
But it's terrible the way people come into his room, take papers lying on his table and proceed to pass them around!
But why does he leave them on the table! (Mother looks very angry) It's disastrous. A dreadful blunder. It's going to get me into big, big trouble—just what I wanted to avoid.
I think, or hope at any rate, that it won't get out of the small collectivity of the Ashram.
It always gets out. And there's someone (nobody knows who) who sends the government EVERYTHING that appears here.
It's a disaster.
(Mother goes within for a long time, she moans)
Anything to ask?
It's not easy.
(Mother makes a gesture as if to agree and goes back within)
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