Others too had to understand Her secret - her own disciples, Nations. Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? '... The body knows that the work will go on and on and on...'
The last turning point of Mother's yoga, and she comes out of it with this cry: "I have walked a long, long time. There was nothing but a constant cry, as if everything were torn away from me. It was the whole problem of the world." And this Agenda is more and more strewn with heartrending little cries. It was not enough to have found the secret for herself, the others too had to understand, her own disciples, Nations locked in their egoistic power: "They have no faith! 'She is old, she is old', an atmosphere of resistance to the change; 'it is impossible, impossible' from all sides.... Not a single minute should be wasted - I am in a hurry.... The reign of the Divine must, oh, must come!.... If the entire Russian block were to turn to the right side, that would be an enormous support! The victory is certain, but I don't know which path will be followed to reach it.... We must cling, cling so tightly to Truth.... They don't listen to me any more." She is 93, groping her way into the unknown: "I see more clearly with eyes closed than with eyes open, and it is a physical vision, purely physical, but a kind of physical that seems more complete. The consciousness of the cells is what has to change, all the rest will follow naturally! I have the feeling I am on my way to discovering the illusion that must be destroyed so that physical life may go on uninterrupted - death is the result of a distortion of consciousness." Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? "Only a violent death could halt the transformation; otherwise the body knows that the work will go on and on and on...." And this cry again: "There will be a miracle! But what, I don't know."
I have some news from S. about the Russian translation [of "Supermanhood"]. The person who's doing it has already translated the introduction and sent her text. S. says this, "In Russian it is very beautiful—enthralling. The very sound of the language conveys something that goes straight to your heart.
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And personally, in the little I've read, I have felt the particular flow of your style...."1
Oh, that's good, that's good.
I have great hope for the Russians.... I don't know why.... They've had an experience and have realized the emptiness of it all.
(Mother goes within for a long time)
Nothing in particular?
There's the problem of the English translation of the book.
A. didn't tell me what he thought of it.
A. said that it doesn't come through—what's behind doesn't come through. You're forever asking yourself what it means.
Oh!
But then he says that all things considered, because they don't understand what it means, people will be induced to come back to what they've read (!) and try to understand... the second time around they'll understand and perhaps they'll come in contact....
(Mother shakes her head)
It's a very faithful translation literally, but what's behind doesn't come through.
People won't go to such trouble.... Maybe one in a....
(silence)
Do you want to have it read by an Indian?
And ask him if he understands?
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(Sujata suggests a young teacher in the School. silence)
Yes, it has to be someone young.
Some people believed that what we put in the Bulletin last time was meant for the people of the Ashram. So I think we should put a note to say that's not the case.
???
The passage where I say, "Humans are crusted over."2
Yes.
Many people in the Ashram took it to mean themselves.
Well, maybe that's not so wrong! I find I am myself rather crusted over.
(Mother laughs) But I don't want to say unpleasant things!
It's rather healthy sometimes, you know.
You think we should leave it, then?
Well, I think.... I don't know.... It seems so obvious to me, you know. Is there anything perfectly malleable and transparent in us?
(Mother points to her body, laughing) This isn't!
Well then, so let's leave it.
I've finally understood that people don't read things as they are. They read only what they have in their heads and in their desires.
So those who want to understand wrong will understand wrong in any case.
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I've just reached the same conclusion. So I said: I won't say anything anymore.
Yes, in the end, you stop speaking!
(Sujata:) Only, those who do want to understand will lose out—there are many.
(Satprem:) But look, Mother, perhaps you're receiving some protests from a certain number of people, but there are many here, many more than... well, of course I can't say "more than you think"(!), but who are doing their job quietly and trying to understand—there are many. And it helps them, it does them good.
To tell the truth, I really don't care one way or another... But I don't want to be mean.
Oh, come on, that's not being mean!
(Mother goes within)
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