Amal Kiran's Correspondence with The Mother

19 January 1955

Mother,

I feel that, in this year of fundamental challenges and difficulties, the first three months are my months of destiny. If the basic psychological defects of my nature are faced and fought now, a crucial and essentially permanent victory will be won with great rapidity. Am I right about the immense importance for me of January, February, March?

Keep your conviction and add to it the faith that only victory is certain — and everything will be all right.

I feel also that some small beginning of the victory has been made, after several attempts and failures. Is this true?

Yes.

I pray constantly for your help and grace. Without it I am helpless. Please give me all the support and assistance you can. I am dead serious in this matter and would like, once for all, to make a decisive turn and belong entirely to you and live only for your love and light. A few words from you will be greatly appreciated. I want to feel that even in your most outward aspect you are directly with me in my effort.

Surely my help is with you in all ways.

It is very interesting that these first three months should come as months of destiny for me. For I well remember the talk you and I had when, two years ago, in the February of 1953 I announced to you that the call had come to me from above the head to give myself at last to the life here. I said: “So many things in me must be cleared out. Although you have waited for 26 years (that is, since I first came here in 1927) for me to make a final resolve, I don’t want to wait for even 26 hours.” Then you replied: “Things can’t be cleared immediately. You must give me, say, at least, 26 months.” In the coming April, it will be exactly 26 months! Will the hoped-for Wonder come to pass?

VERY GOOD.

My blessings and love

19 January 1955