Gautam Chawalla's Correspondence with The Mother

10 October 1966

It happens that after every spiritual experience, I experience a drop in consciousness or rather a sort of negation of that experience. Why?

This is one more proof of the division in you. One part wants the light, another part clings to its obscurity, and as the first part progresses, the other hastens to demolish it.

The unification of your being is imposing itself in an urgent way, and for this the luminous part has to dominate the obscure one and educate it, instead of letting it do whatever it wants — in other words, letting it spoil your life and make you miserable.

You must regard this part of your being not as yourself but as a hostile formation that you must convert to the truth.

10 October 1966