Gautam Chawalla's Correspondence with The Mother

20 September 1966

I have suffered enough! If You truly love me, set me free at any cost. How can I find my soul?

Stop complaining. You are suffering because some part of your being has a perverse attraction to suffering.

In fact, the circumstances of your life would seem perfectly enviable to many people who aspire for a spiritual life.

Observe this mania for suffering sincerely and you will see that it is a pose of your vital which hopes in this way to attract the sympathy of others and maybe even the divine compassion.

20 September 1966