Indra Sen's Correspondence with The Mother

16 September 1946

I returned from you in the morning with the feeling that I was still considered guilty of changing the page headings of Savitri. The fact is, I have no authority over anybody; I can plead with a colleague, but I dare not get even a glaring mistake corrected by myself. Even to get that inner title page composed, I virtually had to obtain D's consent to it. Divine Mother, I cannot tell you how unenviable I find my position in the Press.

Well, this is unexpected! ...

This morning when you came I showed you that I had chosen for the inner page the one you had arranged because I found it good and what was rejected and corrected was the correction M confessed he had done and I could not agree to because it was bad. I sincerely thought you would be pleased to see that your choice had been approved and maintained. I am truly astonished that you did not notice this fact and you left me with the feeling that I was still "considering you guilty". This is a perception I never have; in fact I never look at the work in that way and the notion of guilt enters seldom in my consciousness. For me the work, the thing done, stands in itself by itself, very independent from persons. I judge the work in itself for itself quite independently from the person who has produced it and for the sake of whom I can never change my perception of the value of the result obtained. I fear I have not been able to make myself clear but I hope that little by little I can make myself understood.

I am sorry all these events have unduly translated themselves in your consciousness by sorrow. I say unduly because you ought never to doubt my love and solicitude for you and my blessings.

16 September 1946