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... Grace on Kamala” The Mother has showered her grace on her children in such a way that every child can say, “This is a special grace of the Mother for me alone. For none else she has done this.” Kamala is indeed one of those children. Kamala does not write about herself, but I am interested in writing about her for two reasons. Firstly, it was the Mother who sustained my interest in Kamala, and secondly... passage'. Accompanying Mother for Pranam : A unique opportunity Mother gave Kamala was to accompany her when she went downstairs for Pranam. Separating grapes: Mother gave Kamala the work of separating good green grapes from bad ones. The very first day, she made Kamala sit in the upstairs Meditation hall. Kamala would enter through the main door opening into the vestibule and pass through the... the other to see Mother showering her grace on Kamala. You have asked why Kamala alone is all the time with Champaklal. I have written all the above at length to show that by showering her infinite grace Mother has given me to Kamala from her childhood and has still kept me with her. Much more can be written about the Mother's relation with Kamala. But one can understand it better by reading the ...

... If for some reason Mother is displeased with Kamala, please, let us know. There is absolutely no reason why Mother should be displeased with Kamala. She is not at all displeased with her and she has no wish at all that she should go to Gujarat; she wants her to be here; for here is her true home. Mother is not at all refraining from smiling at Kamala or doing it by force; she is doing with her... fit for Mother's service and for yoga. What is all this nonsense? The grace of the Mother does not withdraw; open yourself and you will feel it. 1.5.1929 Sri Aurobindo Since one month Kamala is telling me, “Mother is not putting her hand on my head. She is neither smiling nor looking at me. How can one stay here in this condition? I wonder if she wants me to go back to Gujarat.” The whole... her just as she has always done. It must be that Kamala has got into some state of sensitiveness in which she is misinterpreting Mother's looks and action—for Mother intends to be and has been very kind with her. This sometimes happens. So you must tell her to put these ideas out of her head and be calm and happy within and open herself to the Mother—then she will find that Mother is always close to her ...

... Part I — Recollections and Diary Notes Champaklal Speaks On Kamala Roshan: “Dadaji, could you please write something about Kamala and her father Kashibhai? How did she come to the Ashram? Why is Kamala always with you?” C: “You want me to write about Kamala? All right, I will do it.” ...

... retained. Both Kamala and I used to accompany her. I would be in Sri Aurobindo's room. At the time of going down either Mother or Kamala used to call me. There are two doors between Sri Aurobindo's room and the 'long passage' (when visiting his room, we enter by one and come out by the other). Once it so happened that when Mother came to call me, she stood near one of them and asked Kamala: “Has Champaklal... Champaklal gone?” Coming out by the other door, I stood behind her and replied: “Mother, I am here.” Mother turned round at once and said to Kamala: “See how he is hiding behind me!” Then she looked at me and smiled. And what a smile! In itself the incident may seem small, but the way she used to act and speak made such occasions memorable. Only those who have experienced them can understand what ...

... have done but not shown to anybody. I will show her that; tell her.” C: “Then what has happened is very good, Mother.” Later, after Mother had shown the portrait to Kamala, I told Mother: “It is not out of pride that Kamala did not want to ask; she was sad because she could not help it. She wishes that everything comes spontaneously from you, not that you are obliged to do it, She knows that... portrait, was so happy, indescribable. One day Mother arranged these sketches in Pavitra's room for showing to Ashram artists, most of whom she had called. The next day I mentioned to Mother that Kamala was sad and unhappy. Mother: “Why?” C: “You did not call her to see your paintings.” Mother: “All right. I will make her very happy. You see, Champaklal,” she added with a smiling, happy ...

... Every day, when after her bath Mother used to come to Sri Aurobindo's door, she used to allow Kamala to do pranam to her. The next day, at this time. Mother gave the sketch in my hand asked her to show it to Kamala. Mother: “Oh, you want to show it to her!” So saying, Mother I showed it to Kamala and added: “The eyes are very nice and very expressive.” ...

... packets, I am reminded about the special packets of Divine's love . You remember once Kamala wanted plastic boxes for the work and you arranged for them. Kamala would fill a box with packets and send it to Mother or give it personally. How happy Mother was, each time she received a box! It was a great privilege for Kamala. At some stage Mother stopped using these packets. I could not understand why she ...

... Aurobindo in last August's Darshan. Nolini had brought a German magazine 1 sent from London, containing Cartier-Bresson's photographs. Mother took out the pages with the pictures and gave them to Kamala. I cut out those pictures; they were printed on both sides of the pages. Then I cut out the middle portions of some mound as precisely as I could and framed the pictures back to back between the... Mother, if you don't feel like it. It is all right.” Even so, she wrote “Blessings” on the pictures. Mother had liked the mounted pictures so much that the next day she asked me to fetch them from Kamala as she wanted to show them to Pranab. While showing them to him she remarked: “How nicely they are arranged by Champaklal! Isn't it so?” × ...

... another Cachon from the box, she places it on my palm. It is 6.10 by the time she has come down to the first floor. I follow her through the Salon. Near the small passage she stops to say Bonjour to Kamala who is waiting there. Further on, in the long corridor Mounnou is waiting; Mother tells her Bonjour and gives her a small biscuit tin which is kept ready. Formerly—Mounnou was then ten—Mother used... brought with her upstairs. Inside the Salon Dr. Sanyal 7 is waiting near the cupboard. Mother greets him with a Bonjour . She glances again at the small passage near the staircase door where Kamala, Rassendran 8 , Chandana 9 , Doctor-babu's grandson Tarun and Arpita are waiting. Then Mother goes upstairs, the doctor follows. I go behind them up to the landing. Mother and Dr. Sanyal go into ...

... “Childhood” Our little ashram on the island of Kansia, a few miles from Bharooch, stood on the land of Kamala's father Kashibhai. When I joined that ashram in 1920, Kamala was a healthy and lively child of about five who, innocent and without inhibitions, roamed about freely in the huge estate. Once, the ladies there tried to restrain her with their ideas of dress and... let her choose whether to 'learn' the worldly ways or be free. She, of course, preferred her freedom and happily continued with her spontaneous ways. In the courtyard there were many berry trees and Kamala used to collect the best ones and bring them for me. Though many others lived in the ashram, she gave them only to me. Her elder sister Yashoda, who later married Vallabhbhai Patel's son, was also ...

... that day and keep them for the next morning. Then in the morning, she would place these small roses in one dish, arrange them in two lots, one for me an the other for Kamala and after my pranam she would give me my lot. After me Kamala would receive hers. This went on for a long time. Then this particular flower was stopped and Mother started giving Champa ( Psychological perfection ). This continued ...

... Both Resting 1950-11-01 Mother told Kamala: “Inform Champaklal that I will go to Sri Aurobindo at 2.45 p.m. today.” It appears that Mother had come and peeped into Sri Aurobindo's room to tell this to me. But she went back as she found that Sri Aurobindo was resting and I was sitting with my eyes closed. Mother told this to Kamala and said that she did not want to disturb me! You can ...

... who lived there could benefit by the satsang and build up good sanskara . He had invited Dikshitbhai to come there, Dikshitbhai's wife and son were already there when he and I reached the ashram. Kamala was then 5 years old. Later, Punamchandbhai and his wife Champaben, and Chimanlal, elder brother of Kesarimal [who later opened the Ayurvedic Section in Sri Aurobindo Ashram], arrived. Kanti, brother ...

... 1950-11-05 Mother opened the drawer of the table and showed me a card. She asked if I had seen it. C: “Yes, Mother, you have given it to me.” Mother was surprised. Then pointing to the card, Kamala said: “Mother, somebody is standing in the corner there.” Mother: “Yes, it is a servant.” K: “Mother, outside also there is somebody standing.” Mother: “The servant is standing there and between ...

... they would sometimes get upset (especially Chandulal), but that was long ago. Now they have learnt to take it in the right way. 3.6.1934 Sri Aurobindo My Sweet Mother, Champaklal and Kamala are painting so well but I am not making progress. What should I do? Champaklal has a natural talent already developed to an unusual degree. As for K she did very poor things at first and took a ...

... 10 a.m.. Mother went to the Balcony at 7.15. For various reasons the time of Balcony darshan never remained fixed. Then there was another programme after which she would go downstairs for Pranam and Kamala and I would accompany her. Today I was waiting in Sri Aurobindo's room for Mother to come in as usual for combing his hair when she called me at 9.35 a.m. As she had called, I went out to her and ...

... would accompany me. I said it was not necessary. He insisted on coming as he felt it was his duty. He said, “Mother has asked us to look after you.” I firmly refused: “It is absolutely unnecessary.” Kamala and Counouma1 advised me to travel in a car, but I preferred to go in the bus, because it was less expensive. The doctor in Madras was a close friend of Doraiswamy and was also an acquaintance of Counouma ...

... remember Mother tried once to stop the distribution of tea in the Ashram; but that could only be for a short period. It had to be resumed and it continues. At first it used to be distributed by me through Kamala, then through Rajangam. Thereafter it is been done by Ravindra. ...

... Part I — Recollections and Diary Notes Champaklal Speaks Kamala’s Portrait 1951-04-12 Kamala's portrait done by Mother had faded. I took it to her and showed it saying: “Look Mother, what has happened!” Mother: “The drawing is very pretty.” She said it as if it had been done by somebody else! C: “Can you do something, Mother?” Mother: “Champaklal ...

... Part I — Recollections and Diary Notes Champaklal Speaks Sri Krishna and Sri Aurobindo Kamala's brother Mahesh had come with me in 1923. Obviously we both came for the same purpose, but I found a difference in Sri Aurobindo's way of dealing with us. To me he was speaking and guiding me in his Yoga but to Mahesh he talked of bhakti and upasana [worship] ...

... Part I — Recollections and Diary Notes Champaklal Speaks Kashibhai’s Offering It was long ago. Kamala's brother Mahesh passed away. Her father Kashibhai 1 wanted to offer some cows to the Mother. He asked me to inform her about it. Mother was very happy to know of this. But I noticed a change after some days. One day Mother told me that a printing ...

... Part I — Recollections and Diary Notes Champaklal Speaks In Sri Aurobindo’s Protection Punamchandbhai, his wife Champaben, Kamala's brother Mahesh and I arrived here on 12th June 1923. After about a month, as far as I remember, plans for the marriage of Champaben's brother were finalised. Punamchandbhai did not go but sent Champaben to attend the wedding ...

... that he was an impromptu composer. These couplets seem quite ordinary but when he sang them the effect was so powerful that one would forget everything and just sit there. At Jhadeshwar, I had seen Kamala's father spend the whole day in his company. He used to keep a dhuni [a sacred fire tended with pungent herbs etc.] constantly lit in front of him. His massive physique reminded one of Bhimasen of ...