Others too had to understand Her secret - her own disciples, Nations. Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? '... The body knows that the work will go on and on and on...'
The last turning point of Mother's yoga, and she comes out of it with this cry: "I have walked a long, long time. There was nothing but a constant cry, as if everything were torn away from me. It was the whole problem of the world." And this Agenda is more and more strewn with heartrending little cries. It was not enough to have found the secret for herself, the others too had to understand, her own disciples, Nations locked in their egoistic power: "They have no faith! 'She is old, she is old', an atmosphere of resistance to the change; 'it is impossible, impossible' from all sides.... Not a single minute should be wasted - I am in a hurry.... The reign of the Divine must, oh, must come!.... If the entire Russian block were to turn to the right side, that would be an enormous support! The victory is certain, but I don't know which path will be followed to reach it.... We must cling, cling so tightly to Truth.... They don't listen to me any more." She is 93, groping her way into the unknown: "I see more clearly with eyes closed than with eyes open, and it is a physical vision, purely physical, but a kind of physical that seems more complete. The consciousness of the cells is what has to change, all the rest will follow naturally! I have the feeling I am on my way to discovering the illusion that must be destroyed so that physical life may go on uninterrupted - death is the result of a distortion of consciousness." Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? "Only a violent death could halt the transformation; otherwise the body knows that the work will go on and on and on...." And this cry again: "There will be a miracle! But what, I don't know."
The body has the impression that it has to learn a new way to live, and it is learning new things all the time. But they're tiny little things, that is, there's a kind of secret to be found, an attitude that must be steadfast, making circumstances as good as they can be.
It's something equivalent to the mantra. For the time being the body repeats the mantra, but it knows that it's.... There's something to be learned that physically replaces the mantra.
(Mother goes within)
What's on your mind?
What I personally find difficult is permanence—to establish a permanence. It's very difficult.
A permanence of what? Consciousness?
Yes, consciousness.
Page 218
But consciousness is permanent.
Yes, but the external consciousness isn't permanent.1 The physical mind, for instance, may go on repeating all sorts of useless things.
Oh!...
And on the other hand, the mantra gives me a feeling of a mental imposition, you understand? It's not something that springs up from the core of the cells. It's imposed. So it is set going for a time and is repeated—the mantra gets repeated the way any stupidity is repeated. And then after a time, something else comes.
(Mother remains silent)
One has the impression that unless there is literally a possession by something else, it's hopeless. It should be really like a possession.
Yes, possessed by the Divine. That's perfectly correct.
That's the only way.
(long silence)
These last few days (and quite strongly this morning) I have had the impression: the Divine is all things, and we are born so that each one makes a choice and manifests one of those things—one or several.... And so comes the question of deciding on the choice, but that's just where one must surrender entirely and leave the choice entirely to the Divine. We have been created as we are, and that's the reason for all this wavering, these complications—but what we have to learn is to leave it to... that is, have no desire, no preference, and leave the choice entirely to the Divine.
Page 219
Home
The Mother
Books
Agenda
Share your feedback. Help us improve. Or ask a question.