Others too had to understand Her secret - her own disciples, Nations. Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? '... The body knows that the work will go on and on and on...'
The last turning point of Mother's yoga, and she comes out of it with this cry: "I have walked a long, long time. There was nothing but a constant cry, as if everything were torn away from me. It was the whole problem of the world." And this Agenda is more and more strewn with heartrending little cries. It was not enough to have found the secret for herself, the others too had to understand, her own disciples, Nations locked in their egoistic power: "They have no faith! 'She is old, she is old', an atmosphere of resistance to the change; 'it is impossible, impossible' from all sides.... Not a single minute should be wasted - I am in a hurry.... The reign of the Divine must, oh, must come!.... If the entire Russian block were to turn to the right side, that would be an enormous support! The victory is certain, but I don't know which path will be followed to reach it.... We must cling, cling so tightly to Truth.... They don't listen to me any more." She is 93, groping her way into the unknown: "I see more clearly with eyes closed than with eyes open, and it is a physical vision, purely physical, but a kind of physical that seems more complete. The consciousness of the cells is what has to change, all the rest will follow naturally! I have the feeling I am on my way to discovering the illusion that must be destroyed so that physical life may go on uninterrupted - death is the result of a distortion of consciousness." Will she be heard? Will she be allowed to pursue her experience? "Only a violent death could halt the transformation; otherwise the body knows that the work will go on and on and on...." And this cry again: "There will be a miracle! But what, I don't know."
(Satprem gives a white rose to Mother.)
Oh, how beautiful!
Page 49
How did the 21st go?
I should ask you! (laughter) What about you, what do you say, how was the 21st?
Well, personally I always feel the power so tremendously, you know.
Oh, indeed, tremendous!... It... it comes like this (massive gesture).
It seems generally that people were very happy, so that's all that's needed.
What do you (to Sujata) say?
(Sujata looks at Mother with a lost look, Mother caresses her cheek and laughs)
You see, it's like following the story of someone else with an interest which... not even with great interest, not even curiosity.... I can't say there's a sense of duty, I don't know what it is—it's a need and that's all.
The body has once and for all taken the attitude of not thinking of itself because... it would be deeply disgusted.
But I must say there are days when I hear very well, days when I see very clearly, days when I hear nothing, days when I see nothing. So... it's like this (gesture of fluctuation).
It's decentralized (I don't know how to say it), completely decentralized. So, if I look—if I LOOKED—with the old consciousness, it would be rather... rather unpleasant, you can say, but the old consciousness: gone. It's something... something that isn't an individual consciousness, but it is not just a collective consciousness either: there's "something" up there—THAT, up there—which sees, knows, decides.... That, up there, is quite all right, it hasn't moved—it hasn't moved. But this.... (Mother points to her body)
There was some apprehension for the 21st about going out on the balcony,1 the feeling that it would be very difficult—it wasn't very difficult, it was neutral, neither easy nor difficult.... The values are not the same.
That's all.
Oh, I would rather hear your chapter.
Page 50
Here is my pension, Mother.
You don't need anything?
No, no, Mother! You give me everything I need.
Really?...
(To Sujata:) Tell me if it's true that he doesn't need anything.
No, Mother, he doesn't need anything!
(Reading of the end of Supermanhood, Chapter 16, "The Season of Truth.")
Home
The Mother
Books
Agenda
Share your feedback. Help us improve. Or ask a question.