The Story of a Soul

05 November 1955

Laxmi K. Patel (now married) became my friend. She is proficient in handicrafts and made dainty things for the Mother.

One day we were engaged in a light-hearted chat, when suddenly Laxmi switched to a serious subject and expressed her view about the spiritual life. She said, "You see, highly educated and intellectual people are very useful in this life. They can easily perceive and grasp the occult truths. They can spontaneously co-operate in the Divine's work. Eventually they reach their goal. The Mother favours these people and loves them immensely. We are just zeros beside these highbrows."

I was too credulous. But I did put up some defence, saying, "Look my dear, since we have been accepted by the Mother, how can we be zeros? Alas! If I could only learn to unite with the Divine, I would gain everything, wouldn't I? But how, when the hostile forces attack me all the time?"

Then she started telling me all sorts of harrowing stories of the nether world which left me stupefied, stunned and shivering. My bright spirits were dimmed in an instant. My mind strayed in a thousand different directions. When I returned to my room I felt totally drained, physically, mentally and emotionally.

I wrote a letter to the Mother about this conversation.

That night was a nightmare. I could not sleep. I opened a book and tried to read, but could not absorb a single word—I had to give up. Eventually I fell into a disturbed slumber.

The following morning I received this letter from the Mother:

My dear child,

Your answer was quite good. No child of mine can be a zero; in fact each one of my children has his or her place and special mission to fulfill. I love them all equally and do for each one what is truly needed for his or her welfare and progress, without any preference or partiality.

The knowledge I promised you is not any superficial knowledge of philosophy, science or art, it is the knowledge of the Divine and of the way to unite with the Divine—This is the only knowledge worth having, and you are right in telling so.

As for the attacks, it is a long standing affair and it may not be easy to make them stop at once—but one day they will have to cease—and meanwhile they can be made shorter and less acute, by keeping faith in my promesse and calling for my help that is always available.

My love and blessings are with you.

The Mother