A compilation of Huta’s autobiographical notes, about which The Mother said : 'This is the interesting story of how a being discovers the Divine Life.'
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The Story of a Soul, Huta's journal of her progress on the spiritual path, runs from 1954 to 1973. This records many of her conversations with the Mother, their private meditations in the Mother's room at the Playground, and their correspondence. In her numerous cards and messages the Mother consoled Huta in her difficulties, appreciated her skill in various works, and promised to help her realise her true being.
THEME/S
Although each day, each moment, brought a new trial to me, in my innermost being I was aware that I could not leave the Ashram, or stay in the ordinary world. Yet my mind was too sceptical to be convinced of the Divine's Presence, because it could not see the Divine face to face, or touch Him—it demanded concrete proof.
I was unable to resist the combative, unyielding forces which caught me off guard time and time again. I could not understand their action, which made me feel worthless, vague, lonely and depressed. Again I was sliding back into the slime of the subconscient, which was dark, dire and unopposable.
The Mother sent me a letter:
My dear child,
You did well to write if it helps you to get rid of nasty attacks. But how can you feel lonely when my love is always with you? Your place is here and your soul knows it well, and it is here that you will get rid of all trouble.
No one understood me as the Mother did. That was why I wished to see her more often, and longed to talk with her to my heart's content.
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