My Savitri work with the Mother

17 February 1967

On the morning of 17th February 1967 the Mother saw me in her music-cum ¬interview room where we used to work. It was a Friday. She said with a smile:

People liked the exhibition very much. They told me and wrote to me of it. I received many notes about the big portrait of Savitri.

The exhibition is really a success.

A dear old lady expressed her view regarding the Savitri paintings:

Huta, I saw the exhibition of Savitri paintings. You have done the work of 100 births in this one life. You are liberated.

I replied to her:

I appreciate your good will but it was all the Grace of the Divine.

Here I recall Michelangelo's words:

The true work of art is but a shadow of the divine perfection.

I came to know that some people carried the book of Savitri (First University Edition 1954) with them to the Exhibition Hall in order to study the paintings. From this very Edition the Mother recited the selected passages which corresponded with the paintings. These passages were tape-recorded by me. Underneath each painting there was a passage so that people could read and understand the paintings.

After seeing the exhibition of Savitri paintings, some people became inquisitive—how everything had been started. Some thought that the Mother asked me to paint a doll! I informed the Mother. She said to me:

But I never asked you to paint a doll!

I said:

Exactly, people talk and imagine according to their own ideas.

She smiled and looked at me for quite a long time. And then she said smilingly:

Inspiration is always standing above the forehead. When it comes to you and ideas are formed or you wish to do anything, you must offer all the ideas and wishes with all sincerity to the Lord and tell Him, 'O Lord, these are my ideas and wishes. Do the best to make them possible. '

Your ideas and wishes are partial—on a small scale, but when you offer them to the Lord, they become wide and impartial.

All these things can be done in hours, in days, in months or in a year 's time. Nothing is impossible for the Lord who will do the best—not only the best—but the very best.

You must be quiet, eventually everything becomes a miracle. You see, everything is like a big curve...

Here the Mother put her finger near her chest and traced with it in the air a curve outwards. She continued:

At first everything seems impossible but in the end these very things are done miraculously, wonderfully by the Lord.

Now, as for your having an office, your wishes are true—there is a truth behind your wishes, but, child, you must pass on everything to the Lord and let Him do the rest. You are indeed blessed, guided and protected Be quiet and peaceful. Do not let your mind come in between and put suggestions; you simply say 'I don't understand '

I at once held her hands and said:

But, Mother, I always pray to you to make me exactly according to your Will.

The Mother nodded and said:

I know and hear your prayers because I get the vibrations.

Then she kissed the top of my head and caressed it.

Ever since I started working with the Mother, I observed and felt that she was constantly giving me her Force, Vision and Inspiration for me to grasp and execute the things she wanted. Not once but many times I caught the right visions and the Mother accepted them all.

I simply felt that the powerful vibrations which were coming from the Mother entered my brain and heart. Then at once I expressed all that I realised with inner eyes.

Now I felt inspired to do paintings of Sri Aurobindo's Poems. I expressed my feelings to the Mother. She said:

But Sri Aurobindo has written many poems—Collected Poems, Poems Past and Present, More Poems, Last Poems, and so on.

I said:

Mother, I will read all the Poems and do the paintings. And, if you wish we shall have another exhibition next year.

The Mother was pleased and said smilingly:

Child, I know very well that you cannot live without doing painting.