My Savitri work with the Mother

21 February 1959

She also sent the message which she would distribute to people on her birthday–21st
February:

In the mind which is a creator of differential contradictions there is supposed to be a perpetual incompatibility between the transcendent and the cosmic states of the Divine—as also between the Personal and the Impersonal, the One and the Many. The supramental consciousness, on the other hand, does not raise these problems, for there the way of experience of the mental Ignorance is abolished and the basis of all things is an indefeasible unity—whatever expression is there cannot diminish or contradict this unity (which is essential and not numerical) but lives in it and by it, never losing the hold on the supracosmic Reality which it expresses. This difference between Supermind and mind is difficult to explain fully to the mind, for it contradicts the logic of the mind and substitutes a way of knowing which is SWAYAMPRAKASHA (self-revealing) and rooted in a knowledge by identity of which the mind at its best can only grasp a thin reflection or a shadow. But it makes an immense difference in the possibilities of consciousness, a difference which one can only realise, not by thought, but by experience.

Also, I received another message from the Mother:

In the eternity of becoming each Avatar is only the announcer, the forerunner of a more perfect future realisation.

And yet men have always the tendency to deify the Avatar of the past in opposition to the Avatar of the future.

Now again Sri Aurobindo has come announcing to the world the realisation of tomorrow; and again his message meets with the same opposition as of all those who preceded him.

But tomorrow will prove the truth of what he revealed and his work will be done.

21.2.59

The Mother

It was amazing to get letters from India within four days!

I decided to change my college as well as my residence. Meanwhile I remembered to write to Miss Doris Tomlinson who was a devotee of Sri Aurobindo and the Mother. She ran the Sri Aurobindo Study Circle in London at her place—42 Clarendon Road W.II. Promptly she telephoned me and came down to see me at Marble Arch. We were very happy to meet each other. Her voice was cultured, deep and pleasant. She invited me to be at the meeting on the 21st. I went. There were readings from Sri Aurobindo's and the Mother's books. Doris asked me to read from Prayers and Meditations this prayer:

O Divine Masten grant that this day may be for us an opening to a completer consecration to Thy law, a more integral self-giving to Thy work, grant that in a communion with Thee ever deeper and more constant, we may unite always more, so that we may be Thy worthy servitors. Remove from us all egoism and mean pride, all covetousness and obscurity, so that all aflame with Thy divine love, we may be Thy torches in this world.

O Lord, eternal Master, enlighten us, guide our steps, show us the way towards the realisation of Thy law, towards the accomplishment of Thy work

O Lord, become the sovereign Master of our lives and dispel all the darkness which can still prevent us from seeing and constantly communing with Thee.

Liberate us from all ignorance, liberate us from ourselves that we may open wide the doors of Thy glorious manifestation.

While I was reading, my soul stirred and my eyes filled with tears.

They admired my reading. But I knew that it would take me years to read and speak like English people.

There was a spiritual discussion followed by meditation. The meeting ended with tea, cakes, biscuits and sandwiches. Miss Partridge—a close friend of Doris—would speak about tea: "We English, where will we be without our tea?"

Every fortnight there was a meeting which I attended without fail, because I met some very interesting people and enjoyed exchanging views about ideals and spirituality. Moreover I got peace. Sudha never came. I did not know why.

After a few meetings, Doris arranged my reading and conversation classes with Miss Partridge so that I might improve my English and its accent. I kept going to her house for quite some time.