At the feet of The Mother and Sri Aurobindo

05 April 1933

MYSELF: Mother, today, I sang for an hour, expressing my ardent prayer to you and, on getting up, I at once wrote this letter. I lost myself entirely in you. That feeling is still throbbing inside. It was as if my whole being had fallen at your feet and been making this prayer intensely. I shall simply send this song of Rabindranath with slight changes made by me and offer my humble prayer through the song:

O Mother, do accept me now,
   Don’t turn me back again,
Possess my rebel heart,
   With me remain!
The days that have gone by
I call no longer nigh,
   Let them fall to dust.
“To keep open to thy Light”
   Should be my life’s refrain.
What lures, what voices
   Made me roam here and there
   In the wild waste!
Now with thy face close to my breast
Let me catch thy wondrous strain.
All darkness and deception
   Still hide in my secret heart,
O Mother, burn in thy pure fire —
   Turn me not back again!

SRI AUROBINDO: Yes, that is the way. The intensity of the aspiration brings the intensity of the experience and by repeated intensity of the experience the change.

(5.4.33)