At the feet of The Mother and Sri Aurobindo

07 September 1932

MYSELF: Mother, I fail to know the reason. I am trying to keep the right attitude by remaining calm and quiet. Some days ago, I had an experience about the right attitude and I wanted to live in the consciousness of that attitude so that no excitement might come in. Yet it is true that still there was excitement at times. Now, please tell me what went wrong.

SRI AUROBINDO: It is the effect of a wrong movement — a mixture of seeking after comfort and convenience and a certain vanity or self-esteem (it is difficult to get an exact word for the feeling) which you did not seem to have recognised sufficiently in your vital. It was an eager excited movement with the vital push behind — not the right thing. As it was connected with the house the effect came up when you removed to that house. We say this because you ask what it was, — but as it is now over, the best thing is to forget all about it and get back to your true condition.

(7.9.32)