At the feet of The Mother and Sri Aurobindo

20 September 1934

Yes, this is the time when you have to persist till you are quite settled in the inner consciousness and the persistence of the silence and peace is a sign that it is now possible. When one feels this kind of silence, peace and wideness, one may be sure that that is of the true being, the real self, penetrating into the mind and vital and perhaps also the physical consciousness (if it is complete). The restlessness of the physical is probably due to the peace and silence having touched the physical but not yet penetrated the material or body consciousness. The old restlessness is there in the body struggling to remain, although it cannot invade either mind or vital or even in a general way the physical consciousness as a whole. If the peace descends there, this restlessness will disappear.

The sex-sensation came from the subconscient. When it is unable to manifest in the waking consciousness, it appears from the subconscient in sleep. The mind must not allow itself to be disturbed — it will go out with the rest.

(20.9.34)