At the feet of The Mother and Sri Aurobindo

21 January 1933

MYSELF: Mother mine, I remember that, when we used to go for a drive with you, you told us once that after a meditation we should go behind this ordinary consciousness. I feel I go deep down, but I don’t go behind this consciousness. You said it was very important, but then how to do it? I want my meditation to be improved. I feel a beautiful sense of going deep, a quiet, a vastness, a peace etc. I like to remain in that state also, but I don’t feel clearly the change of consciousness — going from one place to another — kindly let me know how to go beyond this physical consciousness.

SRI AUROBINDO: Beyond, behind, deep (within) are all the same thing.

MYSELF: I began to try also to go out of this body, and after practising sometimes I began to feel a giddiness. Sri Aurobindo had asked me to stop this practice. May I try it again now?

SRI AUROBINDO: No, very dangerous.

MYSELF: I want to make progress in my meditation, Mother Beloved. I am not satisfied with my meditation, I am eager to get an initiation from you if only I am now capable of it.

SRI AUROBINDO: There is no initiation to give. As you go on, all will open up of itself. It is not necessary to go into trance in order to have all the needed experiences.

(21.1.33)