At the feet of The Mother and Sri Aurobindo

22 March 1934

MYSELF: Mother mine, I know it is my weakness and carelessness and laziness too to make a constant effort for rejection, I haven’t enough will to undergo the discipline of constant effort and it is because I wanted to give up all these small habitual things that all these old things have come in my way; anyhow, I don’t want to deceive myself in any way. If I am unable to see anything hidden behind this movement of self-deception, pray make me conscious.

SRI AUROBINDO: The vital in the physical easily slips back to its old small habits if it gets a chance. It is there that they stick. They go entirely only when that part gets equanimity and a simple natural freedom from all desires.

(22.3.34)