At the feet of The Mother and Sri Aurobindo

23 June 1933

MYSELF: Mother, please don’t suppose that I have been weak enough to want back what I have once given up. Not at all, in spite of all hard struggle. Those incidents regarding X and Y have all been completely excised from my memory. Still a tension is there. I know that ego, self-love, self-importance are at the root of it all, but at the same time I forget it all as quickly. It has been reduced to a tiny little thing, but how persistently it sticks, like a leech! My God, problems and problems!

SRI AUROBINDO: That means it is an obstinate but irrational and mechanical survival of the old movement. That in fact is how these things do try to survive. It is bound to go if you do not give it fresh life.

(23.6.33)