At the feet of The Mother and Sri Aurobindo

26 October 1933

MYSELF: I am ever busy with thinking of myself, seeing and giving importance to myself. Even the progress I make is to my credit. My ego at every step brings in front the “I” as the master, and due to habit I accept it again and again. The play of this “I-ness” is going on; the road out of it shown by Sri Aurobindo in so many ways and so beautifully remains out of reach. As long as this “I” is there, how shall I realise you or become entirely yours? This feeling is getting the upper hand and making me suffer, even depressed.

SRI AUROBINDO: You cannot expect to drive the ego out of the movements in a short time. What is necessary is to see it quietly without being discouraged by its presence, and by a steady persistent action work it out of the system.

(26.10.33)