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After my first coming to the Ashram in 1942, we started coming to Pondicherry once or twice almost every year. In 1945, we came to Pondicherry in the month of February. One day I went for the Mother's darshan. She was sitting in the Meditation Hall and blessing everyone. As soon as I arrived in front of Her, She placed a bright red rose in my hand and said, "Always keep this rose close to your body." I returned home and told Ma about the flower. Ma said, "Keep the rose carefully. In Calcutta I will make you a locket to attach to your gold necklace. Keep the rose petals inside this locket and in this way the flower will always remain close to your body." Accordingly, on our return, Ma got a locket made and put the dried flower petals of that red rose inside it and from then I wore this locket on my gold chain all the time. The Mother had given me the rose in February. The incident with Bhairavi took place that year in December. I was not able to come back to the Ashram in between.
That year for the New Year's holiday, we had gone to Balthazar. A beautiful house, named Lalkuthi, had been rented for our stay there. From the gate a pathway paved with small stones led to it with rose gardens on either side, bursting with
One such morning, putting on my overcoat and cap, I walked up to the temple. Hardly had I entered and rung the temple bell that a Hindi-speaking priest came out. Seeing me there, he asked affectionately, "Little girl! What would you like to eat today?" "Shin agar and Lebbie!" I replied. The priest told me in broken Bengali, "You sit here. I will quickly go and get you breakfast." And he disappeared. Slowly I climbed up the few stairs and arrived at the Krishna temple. The whole temple and the corridors around it were constructed with white marble. Inside stood a beautiful statue of Sri Krishna wearing a golden silk dhoti and his upper body covered with a golden cloth. He was adorned with gold and pearl ornaments and he held his flute. The temple inside was decorated with roses and marigolds and the air was fragrant with incense smoke. I bowed down to the deity with folded hands, sat at his feet and tried to meditate. I just loved this whole ambience. I had heard this word 'meditation' very frequently at the Pondicherry Ashram. So I kept looking at Sri Krishna's statue in an attempt to meditate. I sat in this silence for a while. Then suddenly I feltas though someone was pulling me from behind. There was a room behind the sanctum sanctorum that I had never noticed or entered. Today, something was pulling me towards it. This pull was so strong that I could not remain seated for long. I stood up and started walking towards it. I walked down three
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That day, the priest of the temple came to Lalkuthi and requested Dada very insistently to take me once to the temple. Bhairavi was in the throes of death and was vomiting blood. She desired to see me just once. Dada just refused to let me go although at that time nobody in the house was even aware about what had happened, what I had gone through in the temple. But Dada had guessed that my state had something to do with this bhairavi. So in a forceful manner he threatened the priest,"I will get both you and the bhairavi arrested by the police tomorrow! What have you done to this little girl that she has been reduced to this state? Tell me what have you done? What?" With folded hands the priest pleaded, "Babu, I swear I know nothing! I had gone to get some breakfast for the little girl. When I returned I did not find her! The bhairavi was screaming away inside. I went in to check and I saw her wailing and shouting 'that girl...that girl'. Babu, shall I tell you something? The bhairavi is going to die and if she curses
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We came back home. I was still feeling rather unwell. Dada had written to the Mother about bhairavi's illness and her asking for forgiveness. A few days after this we returned to Calcutta. What happened to the bhairavi we do not know.
I was still very young in mind and had not developed the capacity to think deeply about anything. But everybody at home was asking the same question: why had the bhairavi acted in that way.? Dada explained that the Tantriks and the bhairavis in those days used to hypnotise and then sell little boys and girls for their practices. The bhairavi had not realised that her attempt would lead to such dreadful consequences.
After returning from Hazaribagh, another incident took place in Calcutta. Though it was not similar to the incident With the bhairavi, it made me very sharply conscious at that young age of the divine force and influence of Sri Aurobindo and the Mother.
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Sri Balananda Giri and Swami Mohanananda were both beings of a certain spiritual accomplishment. On the strength of their spiritual vision, they had certainly seen Sri Aurobindo's and the Mother's Presence around us. And for this reason he had bowed down to this Presence within us. Needless to say that this experience opened for both Ma and me another door within.
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