Contact with The Mother

EVERY CELL OF MY BODY...

It was a case of prolonged suffering. Doctors had declared it to be beyond recovery and simply ‘hopeless’. The last injection was given and the best of the doctors in the State said in a most pessimistic tone that now it was a question of a few minutes and if I survived that night a doctor would have to be called in from Calcutta. As I am a Class I government servant the best medical aid was easily available to me, yet seemed all in vain.

All the members of my family, my wife and children were shocked to hear of the imminent calamity. But even on the pronouncement of the doctor I had not lost heart and was feeling very much ‘relief’ within and was absolutely calm and composed.

I asked my wife to sprinkle Ganges-water over my body and to put Tulasi leaf and Ganges-water into my mouth. When this was done I asked her to close the door, take the pictures of the Mother and Sri Aurobindo from my Puja-corner and put them on my chest so that I might see them clearly and meditate on them intensely. This also was done. Then all those who were in the room, including my wife and children, were asked by me to leave me alone. This was at 3 a.m. and I asked them to open the door at 6 a.m. to see whether I was still alive or gone.

Silently, in the heart of my heart I started repeating the mahāmantra: श्री मीराऽरविन्दाय नम:—“obeisance to Sri Aurobindo and the Mother”—with rapt meditation on them within my deepest heart. It was hardly 45 minutes to 4 when I felt the Mother as if physically near my pillow, looking at me with infinite love and compassion and showering on me Her peace and bliss. The Mantra and Meditation went on uninterruptedly and all along I felt the Mother’s physical yet luminous Presence near me, very near me. She then put her right palm on my forehead and said, “Worry not.” I fell into a happy slumber but the Mantra, Meditation, the Mother’s Presence and Her words “Worry not” were all mingled up in it. Every cell of my body was as if bathed in divine intoxication. It was indeed an experience which can better be imagined than described. It lasted for over two hours and when my wife opened the door at exactly 6 a.m. she found me completely recovered.