White Roses (Part I : 1955 - 1962) is an enlarged edition, which includes more of The Mother’s correspondence with Huta & facsimiles of Her handwritten notes.
The Mother : correspondence
White Roses – messages of value to all seekers, collected from the Mother’s many letters to Huta. (Mother once told her ‘I have never written so many letters to anyone as I have to you’ and Huta once told me that in all she had received over 8000 letters and cards from the Mother.) The Mother wished White Roses to be translated into many languages and made available all over the world.
THEME/S
This book consists of letters which the Mother wrote to me during the period 1955 to 1973, which reveal her vast knowledge of spirituality and occultism. They deal with numerous aspects of Sri Aurobindo’s integral Yoga as well as presenting her profound observation and understanding of the world and its true future.
Readers will gain a vivid sense of the deep truths and realities behind earthly existence and our mundane day-to-day life. Those who aspire to achieve self-mastery will obtain practical guidance even in matters such as dreams, food, sleep, health, reading, prayer and meditation.
Here I may express my feeling and experience that if one opens this book White Roses after concentrating briefly on the Mother, without fail one gets a proper answer.
This is Part I — from the year 1955 to 1962. The rest will follow in Part II.
These letters originally appeared in three separate booklets, covering the periods 1955-1963, 1964-1965, 1966-1968. Then they were all put together, along with some new letters received during the period 1969-1973. The division into parts was retained however, because to each of them the Mother gave a short introductory note:
“O ye souls yearning for calm and quietness, let these "White Roses" drop upon your heart their petals of peaceful fragrance.” The Mother
“O ye souls yearning for calm and quietness, let these "White Roses" drop upon your heart their petals of peaceful fragrance.”
The Mother
“You liked the first part — will you read the second?” The Mother
“You liked the first part — will you read the second?”
”Read with your heart and you will understand.” Blessings The Mother
”Read with your heart and you will understand.”
Blessings
Later, in 1981, all the letters appeared in the Mother’s own handwriting.
The most important feature of this new revised and enlarged edition of White Roses is the inclusion of many more of the Mother’s letters to me that are of general interest. Facsimiles of the Mother’s handwriting have been included, along with the pictures corresponding to the letters. As some of these facsimiles are not easy to decipher in several places, transcriptions of them have been printed below. Others which are in the most part difficult to read have been given in printed version only.
Also included are some personal letters which cannot be avoided since with-out them the continuity of the series is broken. At the same time they touch on general points no less than on personal ones. They express some of my deficiencies, but I have not hesitated to place them before the public. Human nature is all of one piece, and what was written to me by the Divine Mother may apply to others as well.
When in due course my other book, The Story of a Soul, is published these letters and many more will be better understood because their full context will be seen.
White Roses also includes some relevant quotations from Sri Aurobindo’s and the Mother’s works, sent to me by her. There is also a reproduction of one of the Mother’s sketches, Ascent to the Truth, along with her explanation of it. A photograph of the Mother which she gave to me with her signature is also reproduced.
The Mother expressed to me her wish that the book White Roses should be made available in many languages. So far it has been translated into French, Russian, German, Hindi, Oriya and Tamil, as well the Gujarati translation done by myself. I have been asked by many to explain the title of the book.
One reason for it is the fact that whenever I went to the Mother she gave me white roses. Also white roses always accompanied the letters which she wrote to me, as well as the exquisite cards which she sent me unfailingly each morning.
A second reason is more personal, and I hesitate to mention it. But the title of the book would not be wholly viewed in the Mother’s Light unless I recounted some words of hers.
Wondering at the constant presence of these flowers, one day I asked the Mother about it. She smiled sweetly and answered:
”My child, whenever I see white roses they remind me of your heart — so pure.”
On another occasion she held in her hand a full-blown white rose and said with a charming smile:
”Look at this rose, isn’t it pretty? This is your soul — so pure, sweet and beautiful.”
Then after pressing the flower against her heart and caressing it, she gave the rose to me. I took it from the Mother with a silent smile, but with deep gratitude in my eyes when they met her blue-grey compassionate and luminous gaze.
The cover picture is of a bunch of white roses which the Mother sent to me to paint. I did so. Here is her comment:
To my dear little child Huta, Are not these “White Roses” very pretty indeed? They will bring a smile of peace to your “blankness” and the assurance of the Divine’s constant solicitude. The “dream” of Sri Aurobindo was not a dream, but a true contact. All love. The Mother
To my dear little child Huta,
Are not these “White Roses” very pretty indeed?
They will bring a smile of peace to your “blankness” and the assurance of the Divine’s constant solicitude.
The “dream” of Sri Aurobindo was not a dream, but a true contact.
All love.
I may also record what the Mother once serenely told me:
You are the only person in the world to whom I have written so many letters.
I can never cease feeling grateful to the Mother for making me her instrument, and I pray ardently to her that all of me may be one with the true self to which her vision penetrated.
Also I am very happy to share this splendid spiritual gift with the world, in the Supreme’s Light.
HUTA
The New Year Message distributed by the Mother:
No human will can finally prevail against the Divine’s Will. Let us put ourselves deliberately and exclusively on the side of the Divine, and the Victory is ultimately certain.
Now, from the point of view of Yoga, it is always better to attach no importance to these superficial things and to keep an inner poise and a quiet mind, taking refuge in the Divine and giving importance only to the relation with the Divine.
My love is always with you, my help is always with you, my strength is always with you.
I will lead you throughout all difficulties towards the Light, the Peace and the Joy.
This, you must never forget.
With my blessings.
Huta: The Divine Forces are slow to appear, while the anti-divine forces are prompt to rush into my consciousness and upset everything. Why is that?
The Mother: Because your call is not sincere enough and your confidence in the Divine Grace is not sufficient.
I am giving and shall give but the important thing is that you must receive.
If you call or aspire with fear that you will not be heard and have doubts about the Divine’s answer then the adverse forces that are always on the watch, slip into your consciousness through the fear and the doubts and do their mischief.
So you must call with a true and sincere faith.
Help and Grace are always with you. But you must open yourself to them.
My love and blessings.
My child,
You ask for a reply, but you are putting no question. To what am I to reply?
Now that you have experienced the peace and the presence, you must keep them by keeping very quiet in your mind. I am always helping you, but it is only when your mind is quiet that you can receive the help.
It is true that I am very busy and during the 2 months of athletics, I cannot give interview. So you must be patient. Do not worry, I am not unwell — I am quite all right.
With my love and blessings.
I told you already several times what is the way, the only way; it is complete surrender. When you came here you said you wanted to give yourself to the Divine, that you wanted the Divine only. But in your brain, there were a number of things (not material but emotional) that you wanted from the Divine in exchange. And when you did not get what you wanted, but something else far superior — that you did not understand, something in your mind and your vital revolted, was dissatisfied and depressed and created all the trouble. Well, now there is nothing else to do but to be sincere to higher aspiration and not only want the Divine but agree full heartedly to the Divine’s Will and give yourself without demands; then and then only you will recover your poise, quietness of mind and happiness. It goes without saying that my full help is with you for that purpose. With my love and blessings.
Surely, my child, I have no intention of leaving you and you need not worry.
But why do you listen to all the rubbish people say? They are full of mischief and throw their poison on every body.
One thing you must know and never forget — it is all that is true and sincere will always be kept.
Only what is false and insincere will disappear.
So — in the measure in which your need for me is sincere and genuine, it will be fulfilled.
My dear child, you did well to write if it helps you to get rid of the nasty attack.
But how can you feel lonely when my love is always with you.
Your place is here and your soul knows it well, and it is here that you will get rid of all trouble.
Blessings.
”My dear, very dear little child,”
I do want that you should be freed from these cruel forces that make you so unhappy and inwardly I am constantly working to save you from their nasty grip — with my force, thought and love I never leave you for a moment — they constantly surround you with their protection and help. It is only physically that I cannot see you and speak to you always because I am too busy and have too many things to do. So you must learn to feel always my very real presence and also my help whenever things become difficult.
It would be good if daily you could devote some time to prayer, worship and meditation in whatever place you find it easier.
Meanwhile keep courage and faith. I shall see you on the first November, your birthday, with the purpose of giving you a new birth, a birth in the spirit, to make you strong and peaceful.
My dear little child — I always answer immediately even when I am too busy to write my answer. I answer by sending my love and force, my courage to resist and my protection against the bad attack. You have only to keep quiet inside, to push away all fear, as much as you can, and to trust my force and protection so that they can work fully.
We must, and we will conquer, even if we have to fight it again and again. I am never discouraged and ask you also not to be — because the Divine’s final victory is certain.
My dear child,
Your answer was quite good. No child of mine can be a zero; in fact each one of my children has his or her place and special mission to fulfil. I love them all equally and do for each one what is truly needed for his or her welfare and progress, without any preference or partiality.
The knowledge I promised you is not any superficial knowledge of philosophy, science or art, it is the knowledge of the Divine and of the way to unite with the Divine. This is the only knowledge worth having, and you are right in telling so.
As for the attacks, it is a long standing affair and it may not be easy to make them stop at once — but one day they will have to cease. And meanwhile they can be made shorter and less acute, by keeping faith in my promise and calling for my help that is always available.
My love and blessings are with you.
My dear little child,
From your childhood something in you was aspiring for a great realisation — and if you failed in the various worldly things you tried, it is because you were meant for a higher realisation, that of the Spirit. Now the Divine has brought you to the place where you can fulfil your highest aspiration — find the Divine and unite with the Divine consciously. This naturally takes time and needs perseverance, but it is worth all the efforts that have to be made for its realisation.
My help, my strength, my power and my love will always be with you to take you to the goal.
There is nothing to forgive — you are the first victim.
As I told you already, it is an adverse force that is harassing you and wants to hurt you, and to take all peace and joy away from you. This force must leave you and go far away so that you can become quiet and happy.
Meanwhile, continue to call me for help, and surely one day we shall succeed in sending this nasty enemy away.
In answer to my letter about Sacrifice, Mother explained:
I did not mean it in sense of sacrifice, but as one says of somebody, “he is the victim of such malady.”
These attacks fall upon you like an illness and you became their victim.
I am sending you two copies of the symbol.
On one symbol I have explained the meaning.
Here is the correct design of the symbol.
The central circle represents the Supreme Mother, the Mahashakti.
The four central petals are the four aspects of the Mother and the twelve petals, Her twelve attributes.
I am so sorry that again and again you have to suffer so much.
I want you to be happy and in good health and my love never leaves you.
I am very sorry that some people have told you so much nonsense. It is their own way of seeing things, but it is not true and you must not believe them or take any decision on such silly talk.
My dear little child
The world is as it is — full of smallness and obscurity. The Divine alone is Light and Vastness, Truth and Compassion. So take refuge in the Divine and do not care for the smallness of the world, do not let it disturb you.
Keep only the Divine Presence in you with its peace and quietness.
I have received your nice letter and am sending at once the second diary so that you can begin to write at once. I propose that in one of the diaries (Sri Aurobindo’s) you should write daily a prayer, expressing your aspiration, or your gratitude, or your adoration, the progress you want to make. It does not need to be long, only a few lines; and it will help you to understand yourself. You will write as if you were speaking to him and to me directly and thus you will create an intimacy with him and myself. In the other diary you will write as you said.
My love and blessings are always with you.
My dear child
Do not give up to the enemy — resist — I am with you for the fight and we must conquer.
One thing you must know that it is the Enemy of the Divine, the Force that is hostile to all divine realisation that gives you this fear to see me and wants to keep you away from me.
I may not be able to give you as much time as you wish me to give you, but on your side you must not miss the opportunities given to you to meet me — one word, one contact, one glance can be deeply useful to clear your atmosphere and protect you against the adverse forces — these enemies know it and that is why they are trying to keep you away from me. Do not listen to them.
The red lotus represents Sri Aurobindo, the white one represents me.
In a general way the lotus is the flower of the Divine Wisdom, what-ever is its colour. But red it signifies the Avatar, the Divine incarnated in matter, and while it signifies the Divine Consciousness manifested upon earth.
Stand firm against the recurring attacks, my strength is fighting with you.
You must never forget that this force that attacks you is your enemy, and you must never side with it. You must remember that your love for me is your saviour and will help to pull you out of the difficulty.
I am always with you, helping you, protecting you, but you must not side with the enemy.
The Mother gave the New Year Message — 1956 — to all:
The greatest victories are the least noisy.
The manifestation of a new world is not proclaimed by beat of drum.
The little red flower I gave you yesterday signifies “the Divine’s help” and when giving I wanted to tell you that the loving Divine’s help was always with you.
There is no doubt that you are becoming more and more conscious and it brings much hope that soon you will be free from your troubles.
My love is always with you — it never leaves you not even for a moment and my blessings too.
Note: The Mother has given significances to numerous flowers by entering their consciousness and feeling the living vibrations of their being. She used to present different flowers to people according to their spiritual needs. And the flowers themselves conveyed the Mother’s message and gift.
I am sorry you fear me and do not approach me with a happy heart, because it is this fear that prevents you from feeling that towards you I am only love and compassion and will that you should be happy.
This fear must go and it will go —
With my blessings always
Do not fear — it is fear that helps that thing to come — do not doubt — it is doubt that helps it to come — do not expect it in any way — it is expectation that helps it to come.
Concentrate only on me and on the certitude of the coming victory — it is the most powerful weapon to chase it for ever.
Keep courage and faith — I am with you —
My loving little Huta
I am, indeed, very glad to receive your letter so sweet and nice.
Surely, I am hearing your prayer, and my will is that this bad enemy of yours should be defeated once for all and put in the impossibility of coming and disturbing you again.
Let him go for ever and never come back.
My love and my power are with you, in you, around you to protect you, help you and save you from all dangers.
Blessings to my dear little child.
Bonjour
To my dear little child
The Grace is sure to be victorious one day with my love and blessings.
I received your letter of last night in which you wrote: “Then where is Thy Will?”
Something you must understand.
I never impose my will on anybody. It is only when somebody asks me what is my will in order to obey it, that I say clearly what my will is. But if afterwards this same person shows displeasure or discomfort in obeying this will, I never insist upon it or coercion. I leave each one free to do what one feels best.
In the same letter of mine dated 20.1.56 I also asked the Mother about the throbbing of my right eye, because I felt that it was not a good omen; something bad would surely turn up and I became terribly nervous.
The Mother answered:
As for the throbbing of your right eye, there is nothing to fear about it — it is no sign at all neither good nor bad — It is only the fear that made you uneasy.
With all my love and blessings.
Sometimes suddenly I experience in my heart — not the physical heart but the subtle heart which is felt in the middle of the chest — a strange kind of sweet and soothing warmth. And sometimes a sudden coolness which comes like a pleasant breeze in my heart. Both the feelings could not be expressed through words. The Mother shed light on the subject:
It must be the warmth of love and the coolness of peace.
Let it be a peaceful and luminous day.
With my love and blessings
Let it be for you a day of peace, light and strength.
My dear little child Huta
I intended to answer this morning to your letter in which you speak of your family and you ask me why they are so disturbed — It is because of financial difficulties. As yet, for them, money has a capital importance and when come the money difficulties they are very much upset.
However, the only way to face these difficulties — as all the others — is to keep faith in the Divine’s Grace and to be as calm as possible.
And yesterday I received your second letter in which you speak of the strange feeling in your heart. This happens because you become sad and worried and upset — it naturally affects your heart — and the only way to cure is to keep as peaceful as possible, not to get upset for small and passing things and to love sufficiently the Divine so that the other things do not have so much power to upset you. The Divine’s love is always with you and that is the only thing that never fails in life.
My help, strength, love and blessings are always with you.
You ask in your letter what comes between you and the love, help and force that I send you, so that you cannot feel and receive them. It is the small ego that comes in between and closes the doors of your receptivity. It is only by aspiration and prayer that the ego can be overcome; a constant and sincere aspiration is always answered by the Divine.
Just received your letter in answer to mine of this morning, in which you ask me to remove your ego. It is just what I want to do and I am working at it. I wrote to you about it only to wake in you the desire to get rid of your ego, because when such is your wish I can do the work more quickly and you will sooner be liberated from the difficulty.
So, keep good hope and courage, I shall see that you get out of trouble.
In your letter you say two things that are quite true.
First, that the child must always go to his mother for help, knowledge and protection; and consequently must tell everything to his mother.
And the second is that you must not tell even a single thing to “one” or to anyone except to me, because it always creates a confusion.
So you are quite right when you speak to me of your family and you ask my help for them, and I am always ready to give that help.
I hope you are quite well now, with my love and blessings.
Now I knew from experience that if I argued against other people’s egos, then obviously I would accumulate difficulties and invite a lot of trouble. I felt that I should not utter a word to these types of people — even if they were absolutely wrong in their statements and conceptions. I expressed my feeling to the Mother.
to my sweet little child
Indeed, your letter of last night is a very nice one, and it made me quite happy; because this is the true way to get rid of the ego; and it shows that you are opened to my working in you, and also that soon you will be able to feel my force and love and to be aware of my presence with you.
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As for your letter of yesterday morning, I did not take it seriously. I could not have, because it is the Divine Grace that told you to ask whatever you need, and you cannot put conditions on the Divine Grace.
So, if you want three things from me, you can ask freely, even if they are, as you say, “Very important, very expensive and difficult to get”, but you cannot put conditions on me before asking.
However, I took your letter for a child’s joke and that is why I answer you this:
It must be three spiritual things that you want, because, indeed, the spiritual things are the most important, the most expensive and the most difficult to get.
And these, I can always promise to give you because they are under my control.
I shall see you tomorrow morning at 11 o’clock.
You need not be ashamed because I am not at all displeased. Ignorance is a human general illness and nobody can escape it until one is united with the Divine.
So in any case you come to me and I shall receive you with all my love and blessings.
You must feel free to do as you feel — because what I want most for you is peace in your heart and quietness in your mind as they are the necessary conditions for finding the Divine.
To my dear little child Huta
Let the aspiration and love for the Divine conquer in you all desires and all difficulties.
I have received and read your letter. I can say nothing more than what I told you already several times.
I want you to be all right and I am doing all that can be done for it. But you must not listen to the hostile suggestions — and in your letter at the first page in answer to my question “Shall you listen to the devil and do what he wants?” You answer certainly not, which is quite good — but on the second page you write again: If I have to remain like this Sure I shall go and die, which is exactly what the devil wants you to feel, to write and to do. So this means that you are listening to him and obeying him. Although you say you will not.
My will is to save you and to save you as quick as possible — but you must let me do it and not let the devil come in between you and me.
It is the devil — your worst enemy and mine — who puts in your head all these ideas of running away from here or to die. He wants to destroy you and your soul’s aspiration and that is why he is making all these nasty suggestions to you. Shall you listen to him and do what he wants? It would be a very great pity; for you must know that to leave the body is not at all the way of escaping sufferings and miseries — on the contrary, once you are out of the protection of your body, you fall the prey of all these adverse forces that will torment you much more than during your life in your body. Do not listen to all these nasty suggestions and after some time they will stop harassing you. While it is by allowing all these bad thoughts and feelings to enter and to possess you that you delay your cure. They come in the way of my working in you and for you; and it is that which prevents you from feeling my presence and my help in you.
Well, my dear little child, now that you ask me what I see, I can tell you that there is in the world only one place where you can fulfil your aspiration and realise the Divine, it is here.
It is well understood that there are difficulties, everybody has difficulties, but nowhere else, as much as here, you can find the help to surmount these difficulties.
You say you have no will of your own but then you must not say “I will do this, and I will not do that, I cannot live here and I want to go, etc., etc.”
I asked you already to side with me and not with the bad forces that attack you; and instead of writing what they want you to write — simply to tell me “Mother once more I am attacked come to my help” — I shall always know what you mean and do the needful.
So the only thing to do now, is to keep quiet and to know that the attack will go and you will make a new progress.
I am never angry with you and always ready to help you with all my love and force.
I have replied already so many times and you are always asking the same thing as if you had completely forgotten what I have said. What I write is true and remains true; it needs not to be repeated again and again you ought to remember and when the attack comes you must read my previous letter and see what I have answered to you in the previous case.
On the contrary you accept the suggestion coming from the adverse force and you identify with it and write to me as if it were your own idea and your own will, and not that of an enemy.
In that case, as I told you, I do the work silently, push the adverse force away, wake you up again to your love for me which is your true being and your only hope of complete cure and solution. As soon as the love is back I can write to you, forgetting and forgiving the past — but on your side you must not forget all this and must not fall again and again in the same trap.
You asked for the true path — I gave you the true path. You asked for the knowledge — I gave you the knowledge. You ask for the help — I give you the help. You ask for the Grace — the Grace is with you.
But now, if you want to be the only creature in the world for whom there will be no suffering and no difficulty — that is quite impossible because sufferings and difficulties are there for everybody until one has united consciously with the Divine.
So, the only thing to do is to be quiet and face what comes, good or bad, with patience and endurance. Because all restlessness makes difficulties more difficult.
My help, love and blessings are always with you.
In one of your letters you ask me: “show me the true path.” The true path is surrender, complete, absolute, unconditioned surrender to the Divine.
Now that you have found out that, by yourself, you are nothing, you can do nothing and that you have failed in everything — now you are ready for the surrender of the ego to the Divine.
The solution that comes to your mind to give up the life of your body is a very ignorant solution, because life and consciousness do not stop with physical existence and consequently to give up the body does not save you from misery and suffering — in fact the result is quite opposite, the suffering becomes worse and in the next life you will have to undergo much more suffering and trouble than in this one.
On the contrary if you give yourself entirely to the Divine without asking for anything in exchange if you merge your consciousness in the Divine, it will put an end to your sufferings — but the surrender must be total, unconditional; unbargaining and absolute, including all your desires, your needs, your likings, your dislikings, your wishes, your wants, your will, everything, everything that constitutes your small person — and then you will find peace and your torments will come to an end. I am telling you the truth with my love and blessings.
My dear little Huta
I have never left you and will never leave you. If you do not feel my presence it must be that you received same bad thought or that you have had some feeling of doubt or disbelief.
It is enough to veil your consciousness and to prevent you from feeling my presence.
Let nothing disturb your faith and confidence, and you will know that I am always with you. Love and blessings.
Let it be a very happy day for you, a day of victory over all your difficulties.
Let the Divine’s Light, love and force save you from the clutches of the devil.
I have received your nice letter with its prayer and I can assure you that your prayer will be granted and your aspiration fulfilled.
PERFECT SURRENDER
Three figures of total self-giving to the Divine :
(1) To prostrate at His feet giving up all pride in perfect humility.
(2) To lay down one’s being before Him, to open out the whole body from head to foot, as one opens a book, spreading out the centres in order to make all their movements visible, with a full sincerity that permits nothing to remain hidden.
(3) To nestle in His arms, melt in Him with a loving and absolute trust.
These movements may be accompanied with three formulas or any one of them, according to the case:
(1) Let Thy Will be done, not mine.
(2) As Thou wilt, as Thou wilt.
(3) I am Thine for eternity.
Generally, when these movements are done rightly, they are followed by complete identification, the dissolution of the ego, bringing the sublime Felicity.
As I told you, the great secret to get rid of all nasty things and to remove the veil between you and the Divine, is surrender. A total, complete and constant surrender. To each attack answer by surrender, dismiss all bad thoughts and bad movements by surrender — this is the victorious attitude and never fails. And to have the strength to do it use my force and power that are always with you.
Huta
With the growth of the consciousness the need for sleep diminishes because the sleep becomes more quiet and more conscious, more restful and thus the number of hours of sleep can be diminished. But to diminish the sleep by force so long as one feels sleepy is not good because it strains the nerves and makes them restless.
As for the food, you may try in the evening the diet you speak of. But if you feel hungry, you can take more.
The same day the Mother wrote another letter:
Yes, you can reduce your sleep if you feel like that. But do not use artificial means (like alarm clock) to wake up because it is not good for the nerves.
I quite understand that you are meeting with great difficulties in your outer nature, and that there are in you two opposite parts that are in complete contradiction one with the other — one wanting the Divine and ready to give everything to reach the Divine, the other quite weak and selfish and refusing to collaborate in the aspiration of the other — But you are not the only person in that condition and many others who were like that succeeded in overcoming the difficulty and finally succeeded in reaching the Divine. So you must keep hope, especially that my force and help are always supporting in you the part that is turned towards the Divine.
With my love and blessings always.
To my dear little child,
to my sweet Huta
I am keeping you in my loving arms to protect you against all dangers.
Remain there confidently and all will be well.
I have read all your letters and can answer only one thing. From the beginning I knew how you are, and it is because your aspiration for the Divine is sincere that I allowed you to remain here. Now the only thing to do is to persist courageously until the opposing force is defeated.
And you can always rely on my help, my love and my blessings.
Bonjour,
Never feel ashamed or fear before me — you must come freely to me as a child to a Divine Mother — Because I never look at mistakes and faults — I only look at the soul, the psychic being, for it to come to the surface and to take the lead of the whole being.
The psychic being is your true self and by opening your exterior being to it you will be able to receive the Divine’s help and to conquer.
Always I hear your inner call, always I am with your true being, fighting all what opposes it — and with all my love and power I keep your true being and protect it against all the opposing forces... until the Victory comes.
Sooner or later the Truth is bound to prevail.
There is only one Truth as there is only one Divine.
Blessings — love
Your prayer is heard with supreme compassion and Grace.
Let the Divine’s will be done.
My love and blessings are always with you to give you strength, courage and joy.
You are a very sweet child of mine, I love you and with all my heart and will I want you to be free from all trouble and suffering.
Remain confidently near me — everything will be all right.
Indeed your soul is with me, with me for ever, and I wish that your body also should remain with me because the body can be happy when it is united to the soul.
It seems to me better not to decide anything in advance.…
Meanwhile, learn to remain always sheltered in my loving arms and nothing will be able to affect you.
Indeed you are very sweet and I fully appreciate your feelings. You can be sure that whatever is done will be done with Grace and divine Compassion and expressing the highest truth. So, at the end, everything will be all right.
Be peaceful and confident — my love and blessings are always with you to help and protect you.
Keep sheltered in my arms — they will protect you against everything.
Open to my help it will never fail you.
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Certainly you are not alone to have difficulties — many others have the same and worse difficulties. But there is hope for every one, and the Grace is on all.
to my very sweet Huta
I hope the nasty headache has gone — I want it to go for ever.
It is these adverse forces of ignorance, unconsciousness and division which are making this world such a miserable place full of injustice and suffering — But the Divine is at work to overcome these forces and the Victory of the Divine is certain whatever time it may take.
Keep a living hope and faith. I want this Victory to come soon.
I was just ready to answer this letter (I can write only early morning, as the rest of the day I am busy) and tell you not to worry because you are progressing well and things will be all right; little by little you will become more conscious and have a closer and clearer contact with the Divine, being aware of the Divine’s Presence and help.
Patience, perseverance, endurance and steady will are required for the sadhana — and, above all, a complete trust in the Divine’s Grace is quite indispensable. I am giving you all these things — receive them and keep them — and everything will be all right.
I received also your nice flower “faithfulness” and feel sure that henceforth you will be thoroughly faithful to the Divine. To achieve that, it is not enough to abstain from writing bad letters — you must abstain also from sheltering in you bad thoughts and bad feelings that the devil is trying to ruin your life and to take you away from the Divine.
I am the enemy of falsehood. Certainly I do not like the part of you that belongs to the forces of falsehood and it is that part that says: “you do not love me.” But it is not that part that I call you. But the part that aspires for the Divine, and the part that wants and loves the Truth — it is that part that loves me and feels rightly that my love is eternal.
Get rid of falsehood and at the same time you will get rid of misery. Have nothing more to do with falsehood and ignorance and you will no more have hate in you.
There will remain only the power to progress steadily towards the eternal Truth and Love.
Remember all that I told you yesterday. Do not listen to the devil’s suggestions — he is trying to take you away from me.
Do not let the mud of ugly thoughts and low feelings stain your Consciousness and take you out of my protection and write only when the devil is far away from you — only when you believe in my love and compassion.
To my sweet Huta
I have received your letter and at once sent you all force and protection.
Let the Truth be born in you, become conscious of your soul. My love and blessings are always with you.
As for the flowers I have given you, after some time, when they are quite old, they can be buried in Golconde’s garden and thus they will be useful giving life, food and strength to other plants.
Note from Huta:
I asked the Mother, for people who did not stay in Golconde, where should they bury the flowers she gave them? She answered that they could do so in any garden.
In fact writing a word is nothing; the true help I am giving is the one I give silently, present or not present, and that work is most effective even when people do not feel it or acknowledge it.
But truly you must be a little more patient and enduring and a little more confident also that I am doing for the best.
It is the Divine Presence that gives value to life. This Presence is the source of all peace, all joy, all security. Find this Presence in yourself and all your difficulties will disappear.
Let this day of Supramental New birth put an end to all the past obstacles and inaugurate for you a new life and a new consciousness exclusively consecrated to the Divine.
Remain sheltered in my arms, enveloped by my love and blessings.
My love is with you surrounding you with its strength and protection and my blessings never leave you.
Huta declares:
The Mother said: “We shall have the ‘Dolls’ Exhibition’ on 24th November 1956. The Idols are to be exhibited also in a Temple which will be in a separate room — so it will be quite by itself. You will take charge of the Temple and decorate the Idols.”
She not only instructed me how to decorate the idols but also explained in detail their symbols and powers. Here are just a few glimpses of her enlightening statements:
Radha The Perfect Love of the Divine
Mother India Spiritual Guru of the World
Mother Nature Mother of the Multitude
Shiva The Lord of Transformation
Vishnu Protector of the World
In answer to my letter the Mother revealed:
I am here all right and not hiding myself — It is the children who are too blind and unconscious to see.
They must open their true eyes and then they will see — they must wake up to the true consciousness and then they will understand.
You must feel free to do as you feel, because what I want most for you is peace in your heart and quietness in your mind as they are the necessary conditions for finding the Divine.
Good health also, coolness in the head and quietness with strength in the body — all that must be established in you so that nothing turns you away from your endeavour to unite with the Divine.
To my very dear little child
To my very sweet Huta
I am sending these flowers of “receptivity” to enable you to receive fully my love and help and strength so that your body becomes quite all right and your mind is cleared from all difficulties.
Do not forget your soul.
Remember your aspiration.
You are born for the Divine and you will find the Divine.
My love, help and blessings are always with you.
Keep your door open to receive them.
My very sweet Huta
I have read your excellent and loving letter, and send you these flowers of “realisation” with the assurance that I shall lead you to your goal and that all of your aspiration will be fulfilled.
My love, my blessings and my help will never leave you, even for a second.
Let your aspiration be like this tower, pointing always towards the sky, ceaselessly, unshakably, and it will overcome all the divisions in the being, all the obstacles, all the difficulties.
I know that in all sincerity you want the Divine and the Divine alone; and the Divine is already with you for the Victory.
I hope you are quite well now and that today will be a very good day.
My love and force and help and blessings are always with you.
To my dear little
child, to my sweet Huta
Little child of mine, it is the conflict in you between the two tendencies (of which I spoke to you yesterday) which is spoiling your health and making you so tired. It is urgent to make a final decision and impose it to your all being — and as the higher cannot bow down to the lower, it is the lower that must surrender and give way to the higher. My love and help are always with you to help you in accomplishing this and my blessings are always with you.
I have just read your very nice letter, and can assure you of our final victory on all difficulties.
Hold tight to me and I shall lead you to the goal — the Divine Realisation.
This card is a hand painted view of Golconde’s garden. I send it with all my love and blessings.
I have received your flower, the pretty rose — I had prepared this rose for you and was expecting you.
For the Grace there is nothing like “worthy” or “unworthy” and — in all she does or says, there is always the same unchanging love and compassion.
Beginning of Realisation in the physical
This card will tell you that we have now started on the way and that I expect we shall go on nicely in our progress.
My love, help and strength are always with you and my blessings surround you.
Remain open to the Divine’s energy that will give you the strength to keep up your resolution to always remain in the Divine’s protection.
With my love, help and blessings for ever.
Let the remembrance of the Truth be always with you.
My love, blessings and help are and will always be with you.
This bird of the birth to spiritual life.
With my love, help, strength and blessings always.
Note:
According to the Mother, the phoenix represents the new birth of the being from the old life into the life of the Spirit.
Be sure, quite sure, that my love, force, protection, help and blessings are constantly with you.
Never lose courage or faith. My love, force, help and blessings are always with you to lead you to Victory.
The Mother sent me the touching prayer of Radha:
RADHA’S PRAYER
O Thou whom at first sight I knew for the Lord of my being and my God, receive my offering.
Thine are all my thoughts, all my emotions, all the sentiments of my heart, all my sensations, all the movements of my life, each cell of my body, each drop of my blood. I am absolutely and altogether Thine, Thine without reserve. What Thou wilt of me, that I shall be. Whether Thou choosest for me life or death, happiness or sorrow, pleasure or suffering, all that comes to me from Thee will be welcome. Each one of Thy gifts will be always for me a gift divine bringing with it the supreme Felicity.
Here is the “Conversion of the vital” and the “Consecration of the vital” (white) which will put an end to all your troubles, and for which the Grace is working ceaselessly — even when you are not aware of it.
who is a true lover of Beauty, this Divine aspect of physical life.
With my love and blessings, The Grace is always with you.
who loves beauty and works for it.
With my love and blessings, always.
The same day the Mother sent me another card with an impressive quotation written by her:
Art is a living harmony and beauty that must be expressed in all the movements of existence. This manifestation of beauty and harmony is part of the Divine realisation upon earth, perhaps even its greatest part.
One thing you must know in answer to your letter of yesterday.
I give orders only to those who are perfectly and totally surrendered, as these orders can not be discussed or disobeyed.
To the others I show the Light and the Truth and give them advice when they ask for it, and these are always free to do what they think best for themselves.
As for my Grace, love and blessings, they are always over all, but each one avails himself of them according to his capacity, receptivity and surrender.
You know, my little child, that my love and blessings will never leave you. They will always be with you wherever you decide to go.
I read this morning your nice letter. And I am sending you some “endurance” so that your aspiration can become steady and triumph in you over all what opposes it.
The Grace’s help is always there and my love and blessings also.
with my love and blessings — The Grace is there to help and protect you always — Let it do its work.
I keep you close in my arms.
I am quite ready to do everything for you, and in fact I am doing it already, but some part of your being, small but very obstinate, is always trying to escape and jumps out of my arms to run away. If you want all your miseries to stop, that also must stop. The Grace is working for it — so keep good hope.
With my love and blessings always with you.
Yes, my dear child, the nature can change, completely change with the practice of yoga — nothing is impossible for the Divine Grace — it can transform a being so totally that all that seemed for it completely impossible becomes not only possible but done. That is what I want to do for you — so that all your difficulties will become like unreal nightmares and vanish in an inexistent past.
The Grace is there working for that transformation,
I have read your very nice letter which is quite true.
Indeed I am quite convinced that sincere love will overcome all obstacles, difficulties, and deficiencies, that is why I am sure of the final Victory, because I know you love me and I love you. With my blessings.
A card showing Amaryllis Lily came from the Mother along with these words:
This conversion of the physical — which means that the physical consciousness becomes entirely consecrated to the Divine in a total surrender. The Grace is there to help for the realisation of it.
Who must come in front and leave no place in the consciousness for that which contradicts her true Nature — The Grace is always there to accomplish that transformation.
Of one thing you can be sure, if I was not certain that you will reach your goal, I would never scold you, because it would be useless.
My scolding is a proof of my conviction that you will succeed.
My love and blessings are always active with you.
Even the greatest darkness of night is bound to disappear in front of the Dawn. Remember your soul and its aspiration:
The Sun will rise,
this is certain.
This is to remind you to be receptive to the Grace and to act under your soul’s inspiration.
With my love and blessings constantly with you.
To my dear child
The thoughts of the Divine are like white doves of peace and sweetness.
My love and blessings surround you.
I have no intention of punishing you and will never do so. It is a pity that you are harming yourself so much and uselessly — but one day this also will have to go and nothing will stand in the way of your progress and your realisation…
Once for all take out of your mind the idea that I can punish you or separate you from me because I will never do it, and always I shall keep you wrapped in my love and protected by my Grace.
Indeed, yesterday I was quite pleased with the way you remembered what I had told you and I will be glad to correct what you are writing. Consequently it will be better to put it in a general way as you propose to do.
It is good that you have a good and correct memory — it can be made quite useful.
With my love and blessings in the Grace always with you.
I received from the Mother a card depicting red flowers — Salvia splendens — along with her encouraging words:
Here is the material being consenting to be spiritualised. We are on a good way towards it.
My love and blessings along with the constant Presence of the Grace, never leave you.
Being, as you are, so conscious of my presence and my help, you ought never to become sad or lonely. But surely you will soon become all right again and feel happy and confident.
My love and blessings and the Grace never leave you even for a moment.
This is the lion of Durga bringing true quiet strength and the power that comes from quietness.
I am sending back your book corrected — it is all right.
My love and blessings along with the Presence of the Grace, are always with you.
Some inspiring words from Sri Aurobindo
With my love and blessings and the Divine Grace always present near you.
Love in all forms of adoration is a spiritual force.
Love of the highest and the total surrender are the
straight and swift way to the Divine oneness.
Sri Aurobindo
All my love is with you, my blessings never leave you and the Divine’s Grace is constantly present helping and protecting you.
I have read your very nice letter and listened to your sincere prayer.
The Grace always grants the sincere prayers — so be quite sure that you will reach your goal.
I am happy to take care of you and do it always with all my love and blessings
A card showing Pansies came from the Mother with her charming words:
Here are beautiful “thoughts” for you — thoughts about the Divine which bring comfort and joy. Along with them come my love and blessings and the constant Presence of the Divine Grace that never leave you.
I used to note down the Mother’s conversations with me on various subjects, which she corrected and commented thus:
I am sending back your book with my appreciation of the effort to emerge from the darkness and my certitude of a good success.
This is the day when Mahakali manifests her love and power.
Let it go to you fully with my blessings and the constant Presence of the Grace.
“à tout à l’heure”
That day — on Mahakali Puja — the Mother distributed the following Message:
Thou hast come down into a struggling world To aid a blind and suffering mortal race, To open to Light the eyes that could not see, To bring down bliss into the heart of grief, To make thy life a bridge twixt earth and heaven….
Here is the consciousness turned exclusively to the Divine and caring for nothing else except the Divine’s Light and Grace which are constantly with you along with my sweetest love and my blessings that never leave you.
Is not this landscape something like what we see in dreams?
I send it with all my love and blessings, along with the constant Presence of the Divine Grace.
Whom I keep always in my arms with love and affection to lift her up towards the realisation of her goal — the Divine.
With my blessings and the constant Presence of the Grace.
Keep good courage — your progress is evident in spite of all the difficulties. Even the most acute physical pain, if it is faced calmly and quietly, diminishes and becomes bearable — even in agony, we can rely on the Divine and the Divine changes our agony into delight.
You know now that my help is always with you, and my love and blessings are always with you and the Divine Grace never leaves you — even for a moment. Be assured of that fact, trust fully its action and the difficulties will vanish.
I am near you.
The same morning the Mother wrote:
To turn away from the Divine and reject the Divine Grace is the most silly thing one can do.
I received from the Mother a card showing charming deep-pink roses along with her words of wisdom:
Here are some pretty roses for you.
Avoid as much as possible to be restless or impatient because it is in calm and peace that the forces of the Divine Grace work at their maximum.
My love and blessings are always with you — forever.
This flower “love for beauty” which is very appropriate and charming.
10.45 this morning.
The Mother sent me a card depicting mountains and her words were:
I have a few nice pictures of mountains — you will have them for your collection. They symbolise so well the ascent towards the purity of Truth.
My love and blessings along with the Presence of the Divine Grace are for ever with you.
Here is the second mountain picture — the white summits of consciousness towards the Divine.
I am with you in your work which is sure to be quite successful.
I am with you in your life which is sure to lead you to your goal.
I am with you in your heart which will surely emerge happy and purified out of all sorrows.
My love and blessings and the Presence of the Divine Grace never leave you even for a moment.
Do not shut your heart to the sweetness of my love — That alone can wipe off all sorrows and replace them by a constant and peaceful felicity.
My love and blessings are with you, and the Presence of the Divine Grace also, even when you are not aware of them.
I have read your beautiful prayer and with all my heart I say,
“Let it be”
and surely it will be realised: the darkness will vanish and be replaced by the Light, the sorrow will disappear and be replaced by the Bliss. The bad feelings will be shattered and replaced by the Eternal Love.
For, all my love and blessings along with the Divine Grace are constantly with you.
To my little child
Let the peace of deep love penetrate your whole being and flood you with a quiet joy and strength.
My love and blessings and the Presence of the Divine Grace are constantly with you.
I received from the Mother a card showing snowy mountains and her words like a pleasant breeze:
Here is the pure silence of the heights — when the soul comes to the front and the mind becomes quiet and still.
My love and blessings along with the Divine Grace are constantly with you.
Another picture of the beauty of ice and snow — the purity of the heights.
Here is the “aristocracy of beauty”. Is it not fine?
This is the first of a series of flower pictures which I shall send you one by one.
My love and blessings along with the Divine Grace never leave you, even for a moment.
I received from the Mother Sri Aurobindo’s answer:
Sri Aurobindo’s answers
Some people are truly greedy — they are never satisfied; more you give them, more they ask — and they would find it quite natural if the Divine were exclusively busy with them and nothing else.
The Mother also sent me Sri Aurobindo’s reply on 5.12.56:
Do not be greedy — be satisfied with what is given to you and grateful also for what is given, without grumbling because you are not given still more.
“Sri Aurobindo’s answer” must have been given directly by Sri Aurobindo Himself. The Mother, who was in general touch with Him at all times, spent certain hours for special communication with Him — early in the morning and late in the evening — the answer must have come during these talks.
A card showing two beautiful red roses, sent by the Mother along with her assuring words:
I have received your very nice letter, and in answer I am sending this “loving surrender” which is already realised in your heart.
The glorious Grace along with my love and blessings surround you always with their protection and help.
I received a card from the Mother depicting red roses together with her promising words:
I have read your lovely letter and my answer is, “Let all your prayers be granted.”
Here is the picture of the human desires and passions turned into love for the Divine and for that also I say, “Let it be.”
My love and blessings along with the Presence of the Divine Grace are always with you.
A card showing bell-like flowers — deep lavender, came from the Mother with her sweet words:
Here are the charming bells ringing the joy of Krishna.
Let them be with you — along with my love and blessings and the Presence of the Divine Grace that never leave you.
I have read your nice letter. Yes, my dear child, I will explain to you all that is needed to live the Divine Life, the true life, and I will show you the way step by step.
My love and blessings and the Divine Grace are always present with you, night and day and for ever.
I received a card from the Mother illustrating flowers — Clerodendrum ugandense — and her sympathetic words:
I am sending these flowers of restfulness to bring you peace and rest in the mind and the nerves because that is the solution of your problems — quiet, quiet, quiet, do not get excited about any small thing and at once you will feel better.
My love and blessings and the Divine Grace are always with you.
A card showing an exquisite scenery of snow came from the Mother with these words:
We will call this pretty picture “the way through purity”, the way of an intense and ardent consecration, desireless and pure.
Let me lead you on this way towards your Divine Goal.
My love and blessings along with the Divine Grace never leave you.
The Mother sent me a card showing a vase with flowers — Carnations — and her enthusiastic words followed:
Here is a nice vase of “Collaboration” for indeed we shall collaborate to do nice things and express in painting a higher world and consciousness.
Truly the Divine Grace is over you to lead you to an exceptional realisation, along with it my love and blessings never leave you.
The Divine’s love manifested in the vital
Yes, my child, I will teach you not only what is Divine Life but also how to live it so that you will realise in yourself that true divine life.
My love and blessings and the presence of the Grace are constantly with you.
The same day: 29.12.56 I received another letter from the Mother in answer to mine:
Yes my child,
there is obviously change and things are getting better, but still you may have to fight away the evil force that wants to separate you from the Divine. Stand firm in your resistance, knowing that I am always with you to fight it out.
I am sending back your book in which I have written at the end the summary of what I told you — the central and essential teaching.
To lead the Divine Life does not depend on any exterior activity or circumstances. Whatever you do from the highest work to the most ordinary, you can lead the Divine Life if you are in the true consciousness and the right attitude.
With all my love I keep you on my lap.
Remain always there, and always my arms will be a protection around you so that nothing bad can affect you.
I am sending you a packet of incense sticks for your daily puja.
The same day the Mother sent me a card with these words:
The Grace never leaves you, even when you do not feel its Presence and it goes on steadily with its work.
My love and blessings are also always with you.
The beautiful Message was handed to all by the Mother:
A Power greater than that of Evil can alone win the victory. It is not a crucified but a glorified body that will save the world.
Have faith in the Divine Grace, in spite of everything it will lead you to your true goal — the Divine.
With my love and blessings for ever.
An old wise man in China has written,
“Thought creates for itself its own suffering.”
I add,
Those who think falsely will live in falsehood and misery.
Get out of wrong thinking and you will get out of suffering.
My love and blessings and the Presence of the Divine Grace are always with you in spite of your thinking otherwise.
You ask an answer to your letter — but I have already answered several times to what you write — I have already told you that you are free, free to do what you think best for yourself. All I want is that you should reach your goal — the Divine — the way to do that does not matter much — and you can be assured that in any case my love, my help and my blessings will always be with you along with the Presence of the Divine Grace.
A card depicting three pink roses, came from the Mother together with these fragrant words:
These pretty roses will tell you my confidence in your realisation, and bring you my love and blessings, along with the Presence of the Divine Grace which never leaves you.
An attractive card illustrating two roses — red and pink, came from the Mother with her fragrant words:
I am sending these two roses that express so well the love of my dear child for the Divine — one is “the human passions turned into love for the Divine”, the other is “loving surrender”.
All your prayers are heard and your life will be the living expression of complete consecration to the Divine.
My love, strength, help and blessings are always with you.
I received a card from the Mother showing two red roses followed by these words:
I am sorry for the headache, but bad habits in the body take time to overcome. Yet, you can be sure that one day it will go for good.
My love and blessings and the help of the Divine Grace are always with you, in all circumstances.
The Mother sent a card illustrating a ship, sea and seagulls along with her promising words:
Here are some nice birds sent by the Divine to bring messages of love and blessings, and assurance of success both artistic and spiritual.
A card illustrating flowers — “Impatiens balsamina” — came from the Mother. Underneath the flowers she wrote: “Generosity”. She also wrote:
I am so sorry that still this nasty headache is coming back and back to you — but one day surely we shall find a way to prevent it from coming. Meanwhile do not lose courage and remain as quiet as you can.
My love and blessings and the Presence of the Divine Grace are always with you.
“Thoughts turned towards the Divine”.
Nothing can discourage the Divine in its all compassionate mercy.
My blessings and love and the Presence of the Divine Grace are always with you.
My love is with you, working to free you from all evils, and to bring to you health, strength, peace and joy; my blessings are with you, the Presence of the Divine Grace is with you always.
This is a painting from Leonardo da Vinci; is it not a beautiful image of Divine Love and Compassion? — the compassion that effaces all errors and wipes off all mistakes…
Indeed I am very glad of your resolution, the firmness with which you carried it out and the strength of your will. I fully agree with your nice letter and appreciate the decision you have taken you can rely entirely on the Divine Grace as well as on my love and blessings that will lead you without fail to your goal.
Here is the view of a beautiful Japanese temple which I have seen when I was in Japan.
My love and blessings and the presence of the Divine Grace are constantly with you.
These difficulties are there for all those who seek for the Divine. Nobody can hope for an easy way — but the victory is certain and this certitude gives the strength to endure.
Jealousy is a deadly poison that is fatal to the soul.
Ugly thoughts bring ugly feelings — ugly feelings take you away from the Divine and throw you defenceless into the arms of the devil who wants only to swallow you up — and that is the source of endless sorrow and suffering.
The Divine Grace and love are with you — do not throw them away.
Your prayer is heard and granted.
With all my love and sweetness.
Let the Divine Peace be with you.
With my sweet love.
My love is always with you — Have faith in it and you will be cured.
I received from the Mother a card displaying a lion standing on a rock. Her words were:
This is the symbol of a quiet strength.
On 30.5.57 the Mother sent me a card showing pinkish-red flowers. She inscribed:
Cyclamen
With my love.
The same day in the evening I went to the Mother. She informed me about the flowers — Cyclamen:
These flowers grow high up in the Alps. The wind which blows from there carries their scent far miles around.
The Mother gave the meaning to these flowers:
Scented Marvel —
One of the innumerable generosities of Nature.
The Divine Compassion is limitless.
Whatever is the Truth of your being, that will be and nothing else.
It is the revolt against this Truth — the Divine’s Will — that makes you ill and weak and miserable; stop revolting and you will be all right.
My sweetest love is always with you.
The aspiration is always the sign of the possibility and perseverance leads to the certitude of realisation.
Behind the sorrow and the loneliness, behind the emptiness and the feeling of incapacity, there is the golden light of the Divine Presence shining soft and warm.
Nobody can say, “there is no hope for me”, because the Divine Grace is there.
With all my love and sweetness, and the assurance of your soul’s victory on all what opposes it in your exterior nature.
Glory to the Divine the Supreme Victor.
Surely such a small thing cannot be allowed to interfere with your seeking of the Divine and your spiritual endeavour. You must attach no importance whatever to such a movement and do as I told you to do and I am helping you to do, that is to say, throw the whole thing out of your mind.
The only thing that is important is your seeking and realising the Divine — all the rest is zero.
And I am always with you for that realisation.
With all my power I will help you to realise the truth of your being, the Divine.
It is when the contact with the psychic being is established that the heart feels this strange heaviness, the heaviness of all what is still in the nature preventing the complete union with the soul — and this heaviness brings always tears in the eyes — but the tears are sweet and the heaviness itself is sweet if one keeps quiet and concentrated, turned inwardly with surrender and confidence.
I am sending you the picture of an egg, because the soul is like the bird in the egg — this strange feeling you have in your heart of something tight, comes when the moment is come for the soul to burst out of the egg and it is pressing from inside.
It was 28th July 1957. In the evening I went to the Mother, I offered her three flowers — “Zephyr” — of different colours: white, yellow and rose-mauve. The Mother always gave significance to flowers by entering into their consciousness and getting vibrations of their being. The meaning she gave to these flowers is “Prayer — self giving is true prayer.”
The Mother asked me: What are your three payers? Write them down, I also will write down what your three prayers will be.”
She gave me a piece of paper and a pencil.
I was confused at first. Then I wrote down what I felt. I do not at all recollect now what exactly I wrote. But it was somewhat similar to the Mother’s own jotting. She saw my scribble, gave a smile of amusement and then handed me her paper, on which this had been written:
vital prayer : steadiness and perseverance
mental prayer : purity
integral prayer : the Divine Consciousness
When I was attacked heavily by the hostile forces, the Mother gave me these prayers and asked me to recite them regularly.
They worked wonders.
O, my Lord, my sweet Mother, let me be Thine, absolutely Thine, perfectly Thine.
Your force, your light and your love will protect me against all evils.
Morning
O my Lord, sweet Mother, I am yours and pray to be more and more perfectly yours.
Midday
O my Lord. sweet Mother your force is with me, your light and your love, and you will save me from all difficulties.
[Night]
Mother, be with me, do not let me go in bad places; protect me during my sleep.
The Mother sent me a card showing Pansies, viola, along with her words:
Let the Divine fill your thoughts with His Presence
With all my love and sweetest compassion always.
I received a card from the Mother illustrating flowers — Zinnia — of different colours: red, yellow and mauve. She explained:
Endurance
mental, vital and physical.
With all my love, sweetest compassion, help and force always
The gate of the temple
with my sweetest love and compassion and Sri Aurobindo’s Presence.
Today is Ganapati’s birthday
With all my love, strength and sweetest compassion.
The joy of spiritual purity.
With all my love, strength and sweetest compassion, always.
Keep faith and confidence all will be all right.
The fatigue comes from the resistance and the worry, do not worry, let yourself go, and the fatigue will go also.
With my love, strength and sweetest compassion, always.
(French text with Image)
Here is the picture of the Bhudda of which I spoke yesterday — with the translation of what is written below. I am sending it to you.
With all my love and strength and sweet compassion.
No fire can be compared to passion,
No misfortune is equal to hate,
No misery is comparable to a restless mind.
This message of hope and love for all.
With my love and strength and sweet compassion.
When I received the Mother’s card I wondered what she might have meant by “this message of hope and love for all.” I went to the Sri Aurobindo Ashram Library and found the reference in these passages in Larousse Encyclopedia of Mythology.
So the first preaching took place at Benares, in Gazelles’ Park. According to the texts, the Buddha in his first sermon ‘set in motion the Wheel of the Law’ (Dharma Sakrapravartana). The Mother’s first message indicated at the outset the tone of primitive Buddhist doctrine: lucidity, moderation, charity.
‘There are two extremes, O monks, which must be avoided. One is a life of pleasure, which is base and ignoble, contrary to the spirit, unworthy, vain. The other is a life of self-maceration, which is dreary, unworthy, vain. The Perfect, O monks, kept aloof from these two extremes and discovered the middle path which leads to rest, to knowledge, to enlightenment, a nirvana… Here, O monks, is the truth about pain. Birth, old age, sickness, death, separation from what we love, are pain. The origin of pain is the thirst for pleasure, the thirst for existence, the thirst for change. And here is the truth about the suppression of pain — the extinction of that thirst through the annihilation of desire.’
And again; ‘I am come to fill the ignorant with knowledge. Almsgiving, knowledge, and virtue are goods which cannot be wasted. To do a little good is better than to accomplish difficult works… The perfect man is nothing if he does not diffuse benefits on creatures, if he does not console the lonely… My doctrine is a doctrine of mercy… The way of salvation is open to all… Destroy your passions as an elephant throws down a hut built of reeds, but know that a man deceives himself if he thinks he can escape his passions by taking refuge in hermitage. The only remedy for evil is healthy reality.’
Thus began a wandering mission which lasted forty-four years. Buddha went up and down the land, followed by his disciples, covering all who heard him. Many episodes of this long ministration have been popularised in art or in legends.
“As clouds cover the sun, so the illusion hides the Divinity. When the clouds recede, the sun becomes visible; even so when the illusion is dissipated, the Eternal can be seen.” (Ramakrishna)
With all my love, strength and sweet compassion — always.
“A bad thought is the most dangerous of thieves”.
(Buddhist Scripture)
with all my love, strength and sweet compassion, always.
“Let not worldly thoughts and anxieties trouble your mind.”
(Ramkrishna)
with all my love, strength and sweet compassion.
“When a thought rises in us, let us see whether it is not in touch with the inferior worlds.”
With all my love, strength and sweet compassion.
“Be master of thy thoughts, O thou who wrestlest for perfection.”
(The Book of Golden Precepts)
With all my love, strength, and sweet compassion, always.
Maheshwari
with all my love, quiet strength and sweet compassion full of wisdom.
Durga
She will fight until there are no more anti-divine forces upon earth.
with all my love, conquering strength and wise compassion and sweetness.
The picture of Shiva and Shakti sent by the Mother with these words:
This can be taken as one aspect of the collaboration between the Spiritual Power and the Material Nature.
With all my love, quiet strength and sweet compassion.
Garden of a Japanese temple
with all my love, quiet strength and sweet compassion.
“The disciple should think that all things in this world are subject to a constant transformation…”
“All is movement and nothing is fixed; we cannot cross over the same stream twice”.
“Therefore seek one thing only, the kingdom of the permanent.”
“The Divine alone is eternal.”
with all my love and compassion.
Knowing so well what you ought to be, what prevents you from being so? Just the trust that you can be — that is all.
Let the sun of confidence enter your heart and everything will become easy.
With all my love and sweet compassion.
The Mother sent me an exquisite card illustrating a beautiful view of Montreux and les Dents-du-Midi (Lac Léman, Suisse) and these words followed.
With all my love, the quiet peace of the snow-clad peaks and an eternity of compassion.
A card displaying two lighted candles came from the Mother along with her luminous words:
With all my love, eternal light and everlasting compassion.
Bad thoughts come back under hideous forms and thoughts of love and compassion as luminous and beautiful flowers….
With all my love and compassion.
Wake up in yourself a will to conquer. Not a mere will in the mind but a will in the very cells of your body. Without that you can’t do anything, e.g. you may take a hundred medicines but they won’t cure you unless you have a will to overcome the physical illness.
I may destroy the adverse force that has possessed you. I may repeat the action a thousand times. But each time that a vacuum is created it will be filled up by one of the many forces that try to rush in. That is why I say wake up the will to conquer.
Let the Grace protect you.
There is no question of deserving and not deserving because the Divine Grace is Grace and does not depend on merit.
When the Divine tells you that you will reach your goal, it does not in the least depend on what you think or feel about it. The Divine knowledge cannot depend on your ignorance.
At each moment the Divine does what is the best for you because His purpose is to save you and liberate you from all trouble.
Finally, He cannot allow you to put an end to your life in an arbitary way because death thus obtained means entering into a hell of endless suffering compared to which the suffocating feeling you are experiencing now could be called bliss.
Courage! hope! faith! at the end of the tunnel there is the Light. at the end of the ordeal there is the Victory.
I was with the Mother in the evening when she saw the vision of the Material Mother. Then she related it to me in detail.
Later the Mother distributed to all the following New Year Message:
O Nature, Material Mother, thou hast said that thou wilt collaborate and there is no limit to the splendour of this collaboration.
“And we recognise in ourselves with open eyes the method of God in the world, His purpose of light in the obscure, of might in the weak and fallen, of delight in what is grievous and miserable.”
With all my love and sweetest compassion.
With the love and compassion that surpasses all understanding.
Who trusts the Divine never leaves the loving arms of the Divine wherever his body may be.
Here is Mahasaraswati with all her skill and joy in works, and the Divine’s love and Grace.
“So long as the mentality is inconstant and inconsequent, it is worthless, though one have a good teacher and the company of holy men.” (Ramakrishna)
With the Grace’s love and compassion always.
I received a card from the Mother, picturing snow-clad trees and a lane. Her words were:
The purity and beauty of the snow.
With eternal love and compassion.
This figure of utmost compassion with eternal love.
With the love and beauty, the compassion and peace that are the constant gifts of the Grace.
With faith in the Divine Grace all difficulties are solved.
A card showing a tranquil panorama of nature was sent by the Mother on 12. 2. 58 together with these words:
With the quiet and strong peace of eternal compassion.
The peace is truly there shining in the heart with the love and the supreme Grace.
The Mother sent a card dated 18. 2. 58, showing flowers — Carnations along with these words:
With the joy of collaboration in all love and compassion.
A card, dated 19. 2. 58 showing a red lotus came from the Mother with her fragrant words:
With the wonderful sweetness of the Divine’s Presence.
Nature aspires through her tall trees.
With the love that never fades and the endless compassion.
The duty of the mind, the life and the body is to become and to live what the Soul knows and is.
Bad will is a passing smoke that cannot alter the splendour of the Divine Grace.
“The Eternal is seen when the mind is at rest. When the sea of the mind is troubled by the winds of desire, it cannot reflect the Eternal and all divine vision is impossible.”
(Ramakrishna)
In the love and compassion of the Divine Grace.
For your heart to remain happy keep it always filled with gratefulness.
Gratefulness is the surest way to the Divine.
With the love and compassion that pour constantly from the Divine Grace.
The Light is always there ready to answer to a sincere aspiration.
Open your heart to the Grace so that it may accomplish its miracles in you.
Do not live so much in the outward sensations, withdraw in the depths of the heart — the peace of eternity is there and will help you.
“Be master of thy soul, O seeker of the eternal truths, if thou wouldst attain the goal.”
(The Book of Golden Precepts).
With the Grace’s eternal love and compassion.
at the end of the tunnel there is the light
The Grace is there permanent and eternal.
The Grace is infinite and its love and compassion are boundless.
With the unfailing love and the unchanging compassion of the Divine’s Grace.
If you are not satisfied with what you are, take advantage of the Divine’s help and change. If you have no courage to change, submit to your destiny and be quiet.
But to go on complaining about the condition in which you are and do nothing to change it, is sheer waste of time and energy.
The cure from all difficulties can come only when the egoistic concentration upon one’s desires and conveniences, ceases.
With the Divine’s supreme compassion.
The trees rise towards the sky, beautiful symbol of Nature’s aspiration towards the Light.
With the Grace’s love and compassion.
There is no aspiration that receives no answer from the love and the compassion of the Grace.
In the integral yoga, there is no distinction between the sadhana and the outward life; it is in each and every movement of the daily life that the Truth must be found and practised.
With the unchanging love of the Grace.
No adverse force can prevail against the constant action of the Grace.
One day the victory is certain.
The Grace will win the victory in due time by the eternal Love.
The Grace’s victory is sure, but a quiet endurance makes it come quicker.
The Mother is always ready to welcome the child whatever fault the child may have committed — with deep love and compassion.
Never loose (lose) hope — hope is a divine virtue.
What we call ourself is only the ego — our true self is the Divine.
With the silence in the mind, always comes at first what seems to be a loss of memory, but there is nothing to be anxious about — it comes back in due time and the memory is a better one, more correct and more exact.
The Divine calls the soul to the joy of the rising light.
The eternal Mother eternally embraces her child.
Think only of the Divine.
Live only for the Divine.
Aspire only to the Divine.
Love only the Divine.
Work only for the Divine.
Serve only the Divine.
Be attached only to the Divine.
Want only the Divine.
Seek only the Divine.
Only adore the Divine.
The Divine alone is true — all the rest is falsehood.
And yet the Divine is everywhere — in the sinner as well as in the saint.
The Divine alone is real — all the rest is illusion.
And yet the Divine is everywhere, in the ignorant man as well as in the sage.
The Eternal is seen when the mind is at rest. When the sea of the mind is troubled by the winds of desire, it cannot reflect the Eternal and all divine vision is impossible. (Ramakrishna)
With love.
The power of the human intelligence is without bounds; it increases by concentration: that is the secret. (Vivekananda)
“The forces of the mind resemble scattered rays; concentrate them and they illumine everything.” (Vivekananda)
“The greater your aspiration and concentration, the more you find the Eternal.”
With love
The Divine alone is love — all the rest is selfish sentimentality.
But the Divine’s love is everywhere and in everything.
The Divine is supreme Peace.
Be with the Divine and you will be in Peace.
Be sincere, it is the first indispensable step on the way to the Divine’s peace.
“So we should acquire the power of concentration by fixing the mind first on forms and when we have obtained in this a full success, we can easily fix it on the formless.” (Ramakrishna)
Sincerity is our safeguard
“I am the mother of pure love and of science and of sacred hope.” (Ecclesiasticus)
Wherever is our body, if we concentrate in our heart on the Lord, there He is with us.
“The Lord who is established in the secret place of every soul, pervades the whole universe.” (Swetaswatara Upanishad)
Wherever is your body, you are close to what you love.
“The greater his aspiration and concentration, the more he finds the Eternal.” (Ramakrishna)
With blessings
“O Lord, my heart is purified from trouble and anguish; it is firm and calm, and it sees Thee in everything.” (a prayer)
To my dear child Huta
a prayer,
“Lord, eternal Master, my thought lies mute and powerless before Thee, but my heart calls Thee.”
“Whoever applies himself intelligently to profound meditation, soon finds joy in what is good.” (Fo-sho-hing-tsan-king)
Happy are they whom Truth herself instructs not by words and figures, but by showing Herself as She is.
(Imitation of Christ)
“The Force is there. Rejoice, you who wait and hope; the manifestation is sure.”
“How can he be long in peace who troubles himself with foreign cares, who seeks to diffuse himself into the outward and withdraws little or rarely into himself?” (Imitation of Christ)
“Without contemplation there is no tranquillity and without tranquillity how shall there be happiness?”
“It is in the most complete Peace, serenity and equality that all is Thou even as Thou art all” (a prayer to the Lord)
“Thy love will establish in all that unchanging Bliss which is the supreme Good.” (a prayer to the Lord) With love
“Let him (the aspirant) destroy by deep meditation the qualities that are opposed to the divine nature.” (Laws of Manu)
“As in a house with a sound roof the rain cannot penetrate, so in a mind where meditation dwells passion cannot enter.” (Dhammapada)
“Awaken all my being that it may wholly be for Thee the necessary instrument, the perfect servitor.” (a prayer to the Lord)
At the very bottom of the inconscience most hard and rigid and narrow and stifling I struck upon an almighty spring that cast me up forthwith into a formless limitless Vast vibrating with the seeds of a new world.
Bonne année!
At your arrival at London, I want you to find my best wishes for a happy stay and a good success in your studies.
Let this year bring to you the realisation of your highest hopes, and your most sincere aspirations.
I have just received your letter in which you are asking my advice about your studies. Of course you must follow your inspiration and do full heartedly the work which you feel you must do. It goes without saying that whatever you choose you must do it steadily and persistently if you want to obtain a result.
In any case you can be sure that the Force will be with you to help and assist you.
I have received all your letters. Do not be discouraged because of difficulties. Whenever one wants to achieve something in life difficulties come. Take them as a discipline (tapasya) to make you strong and you will easily overcome them.
I have received your pretty card and nice letter.
I can only say that stability and perseverance are indispensable for success — but in all cases the Divine Grace is there helping those who call with trust and faith.
Never forget that you are not alone. The Divine is with you helping and guiding you. He is the companion who never fails, the friend whose love comforts and strengthens. Have faith and He will do everything for you.
With love and blessings.
It is only by remaining perfectly peaceful and calm, with an unshakable confidence and faith in the Divine Grace, that you will allow circumstances to be as good as they can be. The very best happens always to those who have put their entire trust in the Divine and in the Divine alone
I have received all your letters and the nice little tortoise which I have kept on my table near me.
Be quiet and confident and try to find me inside yourself, it will help you to sleep.
A card illustrating flowers — Pansies — came from the Mother together with her luminous words:
Here are “Thoughts of the Divine” — they make life happy and beautiful.
My love is always with you, and my blessings.
When I was in London, I received a beautiful card from the Mother, depicting a photograph of herself, with her gracious words:
Special blessings during these days of Puja.
The seed of Godhead sleeps in mortal hearts, The flower of Godhead grows on the world-tree: All shall discover God in self and things, But when God’s messenger comes to help the world And lead the soul of earth to higher things, He too must carry the yoke he came to unloose; He too must bear the pang that he would heal; Exempt and unafflicted by earth’s fate, How shall he cure the ills he never felt?
Sri Aurobindo — Savitri
Misery shall pass abolished from the earth; The world shall be freed from the anger of the Beast, From the cruelty of the Titan and his pain. There shall be peace and joy for ever more.
Thou shalt be one with God’s bare reality And the miraculous world he has become And the diviner miracle still to be When Nature who is now unconscious God Translucent grows to the Eternal’s light, Her seeing his sight, her walk his steps of power And life is filled with a spiritual joy And Matter is the Spirit’s willing bride.
On 26.10.59 a quotation came in her own writing:
Always do the best you can and leave the result to the Supreme.
Then your heart will be in peace.
She added:
There is nothing that is impossible to Her who is the conscious Power and universal Goddess all-creative from eternity and armed with the Spirit’s omnipotence.
The Shakti in her workings will strike ruthlessly at all forms of ignorance and blindness and all even that trusts wrongly and superstitiously in her, and we must be prepared to abandon a too persistent attachment to forms of faith and cling to the saving reality alone.
Kalipuja
Bonne fête!
Cheer up!
“All is well that ends well”
and the end will be all right
My love and blessings
I received from the Mother a card showing an exquisite pink rose painted on cloth. On the left and on the right she had written “Love”.
The Message dated 24.11.59 — the Victory Day — followed:
How can the immortal God and Nature change? All changes in a world that is the same As man from childhood grows, yet is the same. Man most must change who is a soul of Time And the gods alter too who rule his mind. Out of their Chthonian darkness they arise And are in their new birth the Suns of Light. Man then shall change into a Soul of Light And be the likeness of his gods.
I received the New Year Card from the Mother when I was still in London
To know is good, To live is better, To be, that is perfect.
On the 5th a folder arrived from the Mother. There was a picture of Mahasaraswati on the right side — beneath it, the Mother had written:
With blessings.
On the left I read a message from Sri Aurobindo in Sanskrit reproduced in his own handwriting:
तत् सवितुर् वरं रूपं ज्योतिः परस्य धीमहि। यन्नः सत्येन दीपयेत्॥
(Tat savitur varam rūpam jyotih parasya dhīmahi, yannah satyena dīpayet)
Let us meditate on the most auspicious (best) form of Savitri, on the Light of the Supreme which shall illumine us with the Truth.
This is Sri Aurobindo’s own “Gayatri” modifying the traditional Gayatri of the Rigveda to express the new realisation of his Integral Yoga of Supermind or Divine Truth-Consciousness.
His comment on the Gayatri is:
The power of Gayatri is the Light of the Divine Truth. It is a mantra of Knowledge.
The Mother distributed on 2nd February 1960 — the day of Mahasaraswati Puja — the message she had sent me in advance, when I was in London.
It was a great joy to receive yet another folder from the Mother on 29th February — the first recurrence of the date of the Supramental Manifestation in the leap year 1956.
The Golden Day
Dorénavant, le 29 février
sera le jour du Seigneur.
—
Henceforth the 29th of February
will be the day of the Lord
On the outside of the folder she had written:
This is what I shall distribute on the 29th February.
The Mother sketched the symbol and gave her explanation as follows:
The design on the medal signifies
the twelve rays of the new creation issue from the manifestation of the Avatar
Lotus — Avatar Square — manifestation 12 rays — new creation
Be grateful for all ordeals, they are the shortest way to the Divine.
Do not be worried. Since a few days I knew that you were in difficulties and my love and force were with you more intimately than ever.
Money and a jewel can be replaced, the Divine’s love is un-replaceable.
With love and blessings
After I returned from London the Mother wrote to me in answer to my letter:
It is your full right to refuse to live in this world if you do not like it.
But to get out of it, is not so easy as you think. Death is not the solution, far from it. Death is a clumsy and mechanical return to the endless round of existences, and what you have not achieved in one life, you have to do in the second, generally in much more difficult circumstances. The feelings that are weighing upon you now are surely the result of a previous failure. And if, once more, you accept the defeat, next time it will surely be still worse.
There is only one way of getting free from life altogether, it is to go to Nirvana, and this can be obtained only by a very strict tapasya of complete detachment.
There is also another and more simple way of getting out of trouble, it is to take refuge in the Divine’s love.
First of all, it is never too late.
From the point of view of spiritual realisation, the time has no concrete reality; all depends on the sincerity and intensity of the aspiration, on the steadiness of the effort. Some can do in a few weeks and even days, what takes years for others. Moreover, as the mind and the vital, the chief factors of progress, are not submitted to the same rules of decay as the material body, the age factor loses all its importance when we speak of spiritual and intellectual growth; there is no time limit nor age limit for the mental progress which can go on steadily for hundreds of years.
Secondly, failure is not the sign of incapacity — far from that.
Repeated failure comes always to those who have something exceptional to do; it is only those who are satisfied with a commonplace and ordinary realisation who succeed easily in what they attempt to do. The natures of a special value have always to face many ordeals.
And thirdly, when I say to take refuge in the Divine’s Love, I do not mean that it is all sufficient in itself. Not so, personal effort and favourable circumstances are also necessary for the promptness of the advance. But those who can take refuge in the Divine’s Love, find there a support, a protection and a joy that gives them strength to face all the ordeals and surmount all the difficulties.
I am always ready to help you according to my possibilities, and I need not tell you my love — you know it.
You ask me what you must do. It would be better to ask what you must be, because the circumstances and activities in life have not much importance. What is important is our way of reacting towards them.
Human nature is such that when you concentrate on your body you fall ill, when you concentrate on your heart and feelings you become unhappy, when you concentrate on the mind you get bewildered.
There are two ways of getting out of this precarious condition.
One is very arduous; it is a severe and continuous tapasya. It is the way of the strong who are predestined for it.
The other is to find something worth concentrating upon that diverts your attention from your small personal self. The most effective is a big ideal, but there are innumerable things that enter into this category. Most commonly people choose marriage because it is the most easily available. To love somebody and to love children makes you busy and compels you to forget a little your own self. But it is rarely successful, because love is not a common thing.
Others turn to art, others to science, some choose a social or a political life, etc. etc.
But here also all depends on the sincerity and the endurance with which is followed the chosen path. Because here also there are difficulties and obstacles to surmount.
So, in life, nothing comes without an effort and a struggle.
And if you are not ready for the effort and the struggle, then it is better to accept the fact that life will be dull and unsatisfactory and submit quietly to this fact.
This, my dear child, is the first point I must make clear to you before proceeding any further.
Huta, my dear little child,
My love, my sweet sympathy are always with you, even when you open your mind and lend your hand to the mischievous evil spirit who is spoiling your life.
I only keep quiet and wait for the violence of the attack to pass away. And all the time my full sympathy is with you in full compassion, for I very well know that it is you who suffer most in these occasions.
I am sending the “prasad” today, take it as I send it, fullheartedly.
And remember that nothing nor anybody can rob you of your place in my heart, because it is an eternal one.
“Prasad” is a spiritual gift, a way of transmitting the Divine Force; it is considered as a sacred thing, and, as far as I know, it is never given to a dog.
It is not to your feelings about death that I object, because I know for certain that one dies only at the moment decreed by the Supreme. To fear or to wish death in fact makes no difference; when your time is come you go, according to the Will of the Lord; and His Will is necessarily the wisest.
Your letter is good and clear. With all my love I want to help you, as I always do. But first, before I can tell you what to do, some misconceptions have to be cleared off.
Death is not at all what you believe it to be. You expect from death some neutral quietness of an unconscious rest. But to obtain that rest you must prepare for it. When one dies, one leaves or loses only one’s body and, at the same time, the possibilities of relation with and of action on the material world.
All that belongs to the vital plane does not disappear with the material substance, and all the desires, attachments, cravings, persist with the sense of frustration and disappointment, and all that keeps you restless and prevents you from getting the expected peace.
To enjoy a peaceful and eventless death you must prepare for it. And the only effective preparation is the abolition of desires, a steady detachment from the fruit of action.
So long as we have a body, we have to act, to do something, to work; but if we work simply because it has to be done, without seeking for the result of our action or wanting it to be like this or like that, little by little we get detached and prepare ourselves progressively for a truly restful death.
In fact, if you do not expect any satisfaction from physical life, you are no more tied to it and get above all sorrow.
This is all for today. The rest will come later on.
My love is with you and my blessings.
I am not angry, but you have done something very wrong. It is about the prayers….
You must take all these things seriously. You say that you write only to express your feelings. It is not your feelings — it is the will of a devil who possesses you in order to prevent you from reaching your soul.
I repeat, it is very serious because no physical death can free you from this hell.
It is my duty to warn you and I do it with all my love and hope that this time you will understand and not play the game of a devil who wants to cut you away from the Divine Grace and from your soul so that nothing can prevent him from torturing you when he will have succeeded in making you abandon the protection of your physical body.
Now I have told you the whole truth and hope you will understand.
My love is always with you in spite of everything.
A prayer is not an amusement or an occupation to pass time, it cannot be a substitute for detective novels. A prayer is a sacred thing and must be considered as such, it must be done seriously and with respect. I gave you a prayer because you repeatedly told me that you wanted the Divine, that your only aim in life was the Divine, that all the rest had no value for you. I presumed that you were sincere enough to receive this prayer and repeat it as it was given, with a sacred feeling.
To give a prayer is an initiation and it must be taken as such, seriously and respectfully, not just as something you do when you ‘feel like it’ or to keep busy. It must be repeated as a sacred thing; any other attitude is an insult to the Divine and a denial of one’s soul.
The hell from which physical death cannot deliver you, is the hell of being in the grip of a devil who makes of you his play thing and takes his greatest pleasure in torturing you.
When someone is in the grip of a devil, which is the cause of big sufferings, the body may die, but the vital being who feels the sufferings will, after the dissolution of the body, continue to feel as much and perhaps even more.
But there is none worse deaf than that one who refuses to hear.
No child can be cured if he refuses to be cured and pretends to be a fool in order not to listen.
Read this letter quietly, steadily, several times if necessary, and do not hasten to answer; take the necessary time for the best of yourself to be touched and let that answer. It is important.
All my love is with you.
Well, it is wiser not to aim at too difficult things just now, and to follow an easier path.
Thus, keep the first prayer I gave you, and whenever you feel that you can repeat it full heartedly, do it, otherwise it will wait in its envelope and will not forsake you.
However, there is one thing I must let you know; it is by a constant repetition that a prayer or a mantra acquires its power of realisation, it is by the vibration of the right sound that the power becomes effective. Of course, if the right feeling is there also, the effectivity still increases.
You can be sure that my love and help are always with you.
The Mother wrote in connection with one of my paintings, “Soul of Beauty”.
When I speak of “New Birth” I am always speaking of the birth of a new consciousness. This time it was the birth (that is, the expression) of a higher artistic consciousness.
There is something important that you must understand. This body with the bit of consciousness in it which you call the Mother, has no power of its own, no will of its own. The Lord alone has the power, the Lord alone has the will — all is willed by the Lord, all is done by the Lord, and it is He alone who can save you from your predicament.
What I told you was that I am praying to Him for you with all my heart.
For me, your face is not ugly. Come to fetch the flowers whenever you feel like it.
As a complement to my today’s letter
The world will trouble you so long as any part of you belongs to the world. It is only if you belong entirely to the Divine that you can become free.
Do not take my silence for a lack of interest or of love. It is in silence that my action is most powerful and always I am doing the best I can to help you.
Yes I can help you and, in fact, I never stopped doing so.
But I need your collaboration, without it nothing permanent can be done.
You must steadily, obstinately refuse to listen to “him” and follow his suggestions — then it will be possible to push him away, and finally he will stop coming to you and harassing you.
But as the habit of listening and obeying is a long standing one, it may take some time before he loses all hope of catching hold of you again — and we must be very obstinate in our resolution of refusing to hear him.
Be certain that nothing can discourage me and I will always be by your side in this fight against these powers of falsehood.
Truth is supreme harmony and supreme delight.
All disorder, all suffering is a falsehood.
This world of misery and confusion is a world of Falsehood.
Only a change of consciousness and the conquest over falsehood can change the conditions of this world.
On one side you say you want to die and on the other you are anxious because you are not sure that my body is immortal — What is this logic. You can be interested in my body’s immortality only if yourself you wished to acquire immortality and needed my help and presence for that purpose. Otherwise, just because you wish for death, you ought to try to acquire the consciousness in which it matters little if you have or have not a body, and the relations of love and closeness established with me do not suffer from the loss of the material sheath.
Alas! my poor little child, this kind of devil is immortal and will disappear from the earth atmosphere only with the disappearance of falsehood.
Well, my dear little friend, after several years of study of your case, I have come to the conclusion that for you there is only one way, and the depth of your heart is aware of it also. It is right when it feels that you will get what you want — and you are right to wait — because to know how to wait is also a Tapasya because at the end there will be a miracle.
For, believe it or not, all life is a constant miracle.
With all my love
You are mistaken when you think that I did not value the picture you gave me with your love — on the contrary it touched me — it is the kind of thing I value much more than beautiful presents made with a cold or interested thought —
Very dear little child,
Do not misunderstand me.
Love is too sacred a thing to play with.
and I have said eternal love
If you still believe in my love, I shall tell you that my love will be constantly with you, protecting as much as you will allow it to protect you.
I wrote to the Mother:
Mother, nowadays I feel a bit awkward, as if I am surrounded by darkness and see and feel falsehood everywhere and in everything. I suppose this is a kind of terrible fall.
It is on the contrary the sign of progress — getting yourself out of falsehood. It gives you the possibility of detecting it wherever it is.
Mother, let me get up again and march forward to where I am destined. THE TRUTH ONLY and nothing else.
The Mother replied:
Surely, not only it will happen, but it is happening.
Lots of love
There are some people at the present time who cannot help being violent. The Mother explained the occult reason.
I said that during the last war many souls that had not finished what they wanted to do upon earth, had been thrown violently out of their body and had taken birth again immediately to finish their mission. The violence of their premature death was cause of a certain irritability in their vital being — but with the proper education it will get cured.
Do not worry — you have spoiled nothing and your spiritual birthday was and remains excellent….
As for you, mon cher petit, I am quite happy with your progress and now I want you only to become a little stronger so that exterior events have no more the possibility to upset you.
We have a big work to do together and will do it.
With all my love.
Do not fear, there is nothing to misunderstand — the more one begins to have a contact with the Divine Light and Life the more one feels that this earthly life of falsehood is painful. But the feeling must be used as a stimulant towards the transformation that can make us emerge out of the falsehood into the splendour of the Truth.
The sleep of which I had spoken to you is an occult sleep in which one can obtain the capacity of going out and into one’s body at will. It requires much training generally and takes time. But for all that the first thing to get is peace, peace, peace — inside of course. It is the most important.
All your letters have been received and read with the necessary attention.
When the storm comes there is nothing to do except to wait quietly till it passes away.
My love is always with you.
Very sweet little child of mine
Do not worry — behind all this confusion there is the great mercy of the Supreme.
With my sweetest love
It is true that life as it is, is not a very pretty one — but it is better to laugh at it than to be sorrowful.
Just a word and these white roses for today.
I very well know that you love me, and the hate of which you speak sometimes is not yours but that of some evil forces who wish to send me away from earth, because my presence disturbs them.
I send you the roses as a sign that no misunderstanding can truly take place between us.
With love eternally
The Mother sent me an impressive quotation on 10.12.62:
If you really accept and give yourself to me, you must accept my truth. My truth is one that rejects ignorance and falsehood and moves to the knowledge, rejects darkness and moves to the light, rejects egoism and moves to the Divine Self, rejects imperfections and moves to perfection. My truth is not only the truth of Bhakti or of psychic development but also of knowledge, purity, divine strength and calm and of the raising of all these things from their mental, emotional and vital forms to their supramental reality.
You have put some serious question about the adverse forces and I want to answer seriously, but that needs time; it cannot be written in a hurry.
Be sure that everything will come in its time.
True Love is the Master of the world and eventually, it will conquer everything.
And my love is with you.
For Love, there is no other curtain than ignorance.
LOVE
Rest Silence Peace Strength
Not in words, but in tangible fact.
That is what my love is wanting for you with a full life of Realisation.
Get rid of falsehood and at the same time you will get rid of misery. Have nothing more to do with falsehood and ignorance, and you will no more have hate in you. There will remain only the power to progress steadily towards an eternal truth and love.
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